Venting Life is exhausting 😭

[Benjiii]

Having to push myself every day for my recovery is very difficult. When do I reach the point where I start acting like a normal person and do things simply because I have to? Doing a little exercise, reading, leaving the house—those basic things feel like a real burden sometimes, other times not so much, but since I've been struggling with myself, they always generate a little or a lot of anxiety, and it's exhausting. Everything feels exhausting. I hate myself. Why can't I just die or recover, instead of constantly trying one or the other?

 

[Ilovemycats]

A person that I admire once told me that recovery isn't something that happens immediately- And that it's something that you'll have to do your whole life. It not easy of course, I myself often give up on getting better because yeah, life is exhausting..

That feeling won't go away, but it can become manageable with said recovery.

I wouldn't recommend strifing for normalcy, seeing as that's a difficult goal especially in the begin. But don't get discouraged either, everything begins with small steps. And I'm sure that with those small steps everything will become more and more manageable along the way!

In short- I wish you luck on your journey!! (*^▽^)/★*☆♪