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cymbaline23
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- May 1, 2024
- 22
I hate the nature of life. I can't just accept this like everyone else. Everyone is selfish and inauthentic. Why do we have to be unequal? Love is purely transactional and conditional most of the time. Why do we have to be divided based on our differences? I hate that gender roles exist and that they're rooted in nature so there's no way to fully escape it. Why do men have to be the violent ones with all the power? I don't want to be a man or a woman, I don't want to be anything. Why do I have to be judged for things I can't help because that's how I was born? Why can't I be good enough? I want to be a good person, I want to feel loved, like I'm worth something, like I have a purpose. I wish I was able to change the way life works. I wish innocent people didn't have to die and I wish it wasn't ignored. Everyone's talking about how Donald Trump almost got assassinated, but what about the audience member that died? What about the innocent families and children dying in war? I don't want things to be like this, I can't take this. And it hurts there's nothing I can do to make the world better. It's crazy to me that we all just accept this and move on. I don't know how to do that, I've never been able to play this game. I've never had the goals or ambitions. I see patterns in everything, I see through all this bs, I don't think any of it was meant for me. Maybe I just need to be shown another perspective. I've tried and tried to get better and find this within myself, but I don't think it always works like that. I don't know what it's going to take to get better. If I'm gonna stay alive I need to figure it out. I might always be too afraid to die. I wish there was a peaceful way, but even then I think writing a note and stuff would be too much for me emotionally.