Venting lied to therapist

[su1c1dal-dungeon]

i think i posted before on here that i told my therapist about my suicidal thoughts one week.

well she asked again this week and i lied and said no.

she would have asked "why" "what happened for you to feel that way"

there is no reason. shit just pops in my head man. im passively suicidal every fucking day, all the fucking time. i dont think she knows that lmao.

anyway whatever. i felt guilty but now i dont really care.

 

[AllAlone]

In my experience there is no point telling the truth to therapists. They may try to commit you to a psych ward. And once you are at the psych ward they will keep you there until you say what they want to hear. When I was at the ward they would ask things like "what are you looking forward to?" And I would say "nothing" and they would say "no you can't say that you have to pick something" so I would just have to make up answers.

 

[BrknEyes]

This is exactly what I've done aswell, even when honest I don't have a reason for the thought process, it's not like I want to think about it. It comes and goes but most of the time it's just passive constant thoughts. You're not alone on this one.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

In my experience there is no point telling the truth to therapists. They may try to commit you to a psych ward. And once you are at the psych ward they will keep you there until you say what they want to hear. When I was at the ward they would ask things like "what are you looking forward to?" And I would say "nothing" and they would say "no you can't say that you have to pick something" so I would just have to make up answers.

This is exactly why therapy makes no sense to me. You're paying to lie to someone because you're basically not allowed to tell the truth without getting severely punished for it. Plus you're paying for someone to pretend to care about you. Their whole business model is reliant on you being codependent on them emotionally. If you get better, there goes another paying customer

 

[loopdaloop]

I get that. And after I was caught in a lie red handed (I've had markings on my neck from starngulation but said it was scratching from a tight necklace), she completely lost all trust in me and even when I told the truth she was suspisus and thought I had ill intentions... So I've just stopped booking appointments to her office, I hate dealing with pseudo interrogations.

 

[Cress]

Honestly I probably lied to therapist about my suicidal ideation Hundreds of times probably at this point. There is a way to set it up to talk to them about suicidal ideation but to be honest with you it's like talking with a lawyer there's so much legal and ethical framework that they're bound by to report on you that it's quite difficult to work around. Usually what's on my mind is too extreme for any therapist to work with be it that I'm actively trying to collect materials to bring about my catching of the bus.

As long as I'm not active with it though I can talk to them sometimes about it. However to be honest with you my last session with my therapist he promised that he would not report me if I told him my suicidal ideation level but even with that level of Insurance I still ultimately ended up just lying to him. It can be done but it's a tightrope to follow.

I did make a agreement a few years back with one therapist that no matter what I said under any circumstance she would never hospitalize me but after I believe a few months of that she ended up having to withdraw it. Because my suicidal ideation was so extreme it was causing her to lose sleep over not being able to intervene and she explained that she would just rather not know about it.