Discussion Lgbt and socially isolated?

[Caustic Cardinals]

Loneliness hurts the most. It causes me physical pain.

 

[Tiburcio]

I have to disguise my true sexual orientation just because all that uncomprehensive and violent people. I only can do it because I like women too but it sucks we can't be ourselves.

I also have no friends, just Judas and shitty persons around me. I'm not even going outside too much because I have not the mood.

 

[Miss clefable]

Hugs I'm trans so I understand

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I have to disguise my true sexual orientation just because all that uncomprehensive and violent people. I only can do it because I like women too but it sucks we can't be ourselves.

I also have no friends, just Judas and shitty persons around me. I'm not even going outside too much because I have not the mood.

i live in a rural conservative place. Its currant year and I still hear derogatory profanity in public

 

[lv-gras]

Hugs I'm trans so I understand

same

offers hugs

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Hugs I'm trans so I understand

same

 

[Tiburcio]

i live in a rural conservative place. Its currant year and I still hear derogatory profanity in public

I live in a very radical area filled with dusgusting nazis. If that cunts would discover me they would break my legs or something.

Nobody understand us and it's very disgusting. I just hate it.

 

[Miss clefable]

same

Like your profile pic I feel like lain too

 

[Soon4me]

I'm bisexual,I get lonely also.I only leave my home once per week for a few hours.Or also when i need to go to a doctor.
I used to have friends.But because i got so depressed i just pushed them away.I now only speak with my family and even that is not too good sometimes.If i did not have the internet i think i would be even more crazy than i am now.

 

[FullFat]

I'm bi and still not out. I get it. I do wonder if I'd have a healthier sexuality if being gay were accepted, but I tend to think I would have always screwed it up. Being bi is just the cherry on top of my shit sundae.

 

[Duqu]

I'm transmasculine (been on testosterone for 11 years), and asexual. Just about everyone I know is accepting of this which is a pretty major miracle, so it doesn't have a lot to do with my desire to CTB. I live in a large, liberal city though so that helps. It took a while for the family to get used to it but like I said it's been 11 years.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I'm bisexual,I get lonely also.I only leave my home once per week for a few hours.Or also when i need to go to a doctor.
I used to have friends.But because i got so depressed i just pushed them away.I now only speak with my family and even that is not too good sometimes.If i did not have the internet i think i would be even more crazy than i am now.

OMG the internet is life!!

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I have to disguise my true sexual orientation just because all that uncomprehensive and violent people. I only can do it because I like women too but it sucks we can't be ourselves.

I also have no friends, just Judas and shitty persons around me. I'm not even going outside too much because I have not the mood.

my laptop is my home

 

[Miss clefable]

same

offers hugs

Hugs :)

 

[Miss clefable]

my laptop is my home

My phone is my home

 

[skyofAuroras]

I'm trans and bi, and even though I have supportive friends and my family is okay with it, it still sucks. I feel that being trans especially just separates me from others. The loneliness really hurts.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Hugs :)

I'm trans and bi, and even though I have supportive friends and my family is okay with it, it still sucks. I feel that being trans especially just separates me from others. The loneliness really hurts.

get out of my head. but feel free to share the friends

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I'm trans and bi, and even though I have supportive friends and my family is okay with it, it still sucks. I feel that being trans especially just separates me from others. The loneliness really hurts.

yeah

 

[SnowyDreams]

It's complicated because I've met many people who were lgbt, my city even has a pride festival now, but as I'm biromantic and asexual, people usually don't get it? Like I've known a couple of bisexuals but their friends (who were gay or lesbian) told them they were just calling for attention and that they were actually "just straight". And everyone usually equates dating with sex so... It's not something that makes me want to die, just makes me feel lonely I guess. I feel I wouldn't be able to date because some people think aces are freaks and some other people don't want to date bi people. But I kind of lost interest in relationships already so that's whatever now I guess.
But also I'm non binary and I have dysphoria, I've wanted to have top surgery for ten years (I would have wanted it before, if I knew it was an option tbh), and other surgeries to get rid of certain organs because they make me feel super miserable, but it's difficult enough for binary trans people to get surgery here in the public health system so I wouldn't even try... and I'm super broke so I can't afford it.

 

[MEoDP]

I definitely fall among the LGBT+. I don't desire vanilla sex/intercourse,but something else. A fetish that encompasses my entire sexuality.

How has it affected my life? I would say,its both a blessing and a curse.

The benefits are that I don't have to worry about accidentally impregnating anyone,(I'm childfree and an Antinatalist. I neither want the responsibility of parenthood nor do I want to needlessly gamble with someone else's life)and its massive availability. If I've got a crush,all I have to do is visit one of her social media platforms,befriend her there(sometimes I don't even have to. Her photos are out in the open),and chances are...profit!

Downside? I'll probably never be able to have a normal love life,a complete uncertainty in my future in that area. Its also something I have to actively hide IRL for fear of being judged or laughed at.

 

[KCN]

I'm pansexual but I've got this "so, y'all have a problem with that?" attitude that helps me in a lot of situations. I wish I wouldn't have to be so rude but all I get is weird stares when I explain my orientation, so I guess that I have to be a bit straightforward about that

 

[QueenEtna]

Lesbian here, my girlfriend is bi. I've though of many times to become FtM trans but I don't think I will I like being a girl but I'm mad that I'm not a guy xD

 

[throwaway123]

I'm asexual and I could probably write an entire paragraph now and rant about all the things I hate but I'm just too tired for that. So tired.

 

[Snee]

my brain damaged because my addiction.i dont feel lonly but i always in my room lonly.sometime i cant understand the reality.

 

[throwaway123]

I'm pansexual but I've got this "so, y'all have a problem with that?" attitude that helps me in a lot of situations. I wish I wouldn't have to be so rude but all I get is weird stares when I explain my orientation, so I guess that I have to be a bit straightforward about that

I don't even talk about it publicly. This is the only place where I can speak freely. And they call my country a "democracy" with "free speech".

 

[sanctionedsuicide]

I'm queer and it couldn't be further from why I'm killing myself. Actually, I LOVE being queer. As a fat dude, I can get dick super easily on the apps, whereas straight guys who are much more attractive than me have great trouble finding girls to sleep with. Sex is a big and important part of my life, and I'd be a lot more driven to suicide being straight than being gay. If you want to get technical, I suppose if I were born female with matching gender identity, it would probably be even easier to get laid as a fat straight woman than as a fat gay man. But if I have to be male, I'm sure as fuck happier gay than straight.

There's even a part of me that wishes my family reacted negatively to my being gay. You hear all kinds of stories about gay kids in conservative areas being disowned by their entire families. I think if I had experienced that level of rejection from my Mum (and the financial hardship resultant), it would make suicide a much easier decision. I'm probably the only gay guy in the world who wishes his family hated him for it!

 

[Escargot Shorts]

growing up i think my family always knew i wasn't 'like other kids' because i avoided a lot of signifying behaviors expected of me. any coercion would make me cry. i think, as a asian, immigrating single mother with her own experiences seeing it, my mom meant well in her own damaged logic to tell me that "to be gay is to have a miserable life." which, to a child is just odd because none of this means anything to you. but it plants a seed. and the older you get, the more you learn about yourself, you already adapt to survive. and a lot of that survival just comes in the form of hiding. either to aggressively deny something about yourself to be resort to just being unseen. and you learn that it wasn't just at home, but if people found out who you are, they'd disown you a best, harm you at worst. so i'd still have friends but would never relax and would always doubt our friendship or be very insecure about it which is where i developed into a young adult after being steeped so long in anxiety and depression. i was miserable. in a sense, i got to be a perfect textbook self-fulfilling prophecy.

oblivious to the experience, i guess, a friend once asked if i really even knew what i was in high school or before it. "yeah," i clarified, and he just paused for a beat before saying, "then you must have been closeted for a long time." "yeah."

maybe about a week ago even, i cried so deeply when it dawned on me just how long i'd been living at that level of compartmentalization and how it affects the way i see myself, how i believe others see me, and how that affects the way i relate to them.

i have people i'm open to, i've have relationships, and i get to live more honestly with people who embrace me. it's just that occasionally very self-defeating thoughts will creep back to convince me i'm still faking or being manipulative and i need to get rid of myself. so now i just get to live with those, pushing them back, aware they'll manifest in ways i'm not always aware of and may actually get me one day. whack.

 

[Red star]

I dunno its hard to say, I don't feel comfortable with people in general. I'm interested in guys but also terrified of them at the same time. I've had bad experiences with the gay community, I never fit in. They can be just as judgemental, materialistic and superficial, sometimes even more so. I totally understand why though, it's because thats how they were treated so they become a mirror to that.

 

[sanctionedsuicide]

They can be just as judgemental, materialistic and superficial, sometimes even more so.

Anyone who says gay guys are less judgemental, materialistic and superficial than straight guys are either mistaken or lying. And I say this as one of them.

All my best friends are girls because I get along so much better with them. It makes me wish sometimes that I could still be a gay guy yet somehow attracted to girls, if that makes any sense at all.