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RedFruit

RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
27
I've always let people use me. Mainly sexually. I don't know why my brain says that people will love me if I let them use me. That is never the case. I allow myself to get into situations that end up making me hate myself even more because I'm being used. I just wish I had someone who truly cared for me. It's definitely one of my main reasons for CTB. How can I ever accomplish love when everyone sees me as a thing?
 
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Jadeith

Wizard
Jan 14, 2025
636
How can I ever accomplish love when everyone sees me as a thing?
Got only one suggestion - the only person who needs to stop seeing you as a thing is..... you. As long as you treat yourself as disposable fucktoy, others will too. People are opportunistic predators. If they see someone vulnerable, unsure or outright belittling themselves they will jump on the opportunity without giving it second thought. And that's unfortunately true not only in sexual area. Basically any sign of kindness can de interpreted as weakness and be preyed upon. Not many good hearted people nowadays, even less those who can really appreciate their kindness...
 
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vascomorrow

Student
Feb 11, 2026
111
I've always let people use me. Mainly sexually. I don't know why my brain says that people will love me if I let them use me. That is never the case. I allow myself to get into situations that end up making me hate myself even more because I'm being used. I just wish I had someone who truly cared for me. It's definitely one of my main reasons for CTB. How can I ever accomplish love when everyone sees me as a thing?
Just tell the guys that you want to wait for marriage. The ones who say alright and stay give them a second look, but the ones who dissappear you dodge a bullet.
 
RedFruit

RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
27
Ugh I'm literally sitting here yearning for this guy when my ex is up my ass. But he literally cheated on me. Like why can't people who truly care, love me?
 
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