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panhandler92

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Jan 2, 2020
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Driving down the street, as much as my intellectual capacity allows me, I notice a pattern in how American society is pieced together and I pick at the edges of the wallpaper.
Roads choked with cars full of people making their way back to their many small homes which radiate outward like a bee's nest. Everything is so neatly placed together where the many pave the way for the few to obtain obscure luxuries, and vacation in places you've never heard of, simply by way of leveraging the average person's day to day needs and wants against them.
People get up early to go to their job so they can pay for their car so they can get to their job so they can purchase things they need to line the pockets of a handful of corporations that pollute the environment and create buying trends to make up the next layer on the landfill in the name of profits.
Why do we advance in medicine? To heighten the quality of life for humans, to spare us painful undignified diseases that sometimes even result in unwanted death, to allow more people that are already alive to continue living and in most cases create new lives for which to carry humankind forward to a destination that doesn't exist.
Mankind's importance and worth is self contained and its success or failure is nothing to anyone else but us.
I don't try hard to forge a place for myself among this and find any satisfaction in even a small thing, but I feel like any effort to do so is like trying to dig through concrete with my hands because I don't know if I even believe in satisfaction.
I exist to be part of a profit margin and so my parents could find purpose through the creation of another inherently purposeless life.
What the fuck.
 
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BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
As I look around the campus area, I see buildings. Trees. Bushes. Cats. Professors. Students. Why are we all here? Of course, every college student's goal is to get that degree and then get that job. Why am I here? Why am I STILL here is a better question.

Some people are able to aquire a good job even without a degree, but not in my case. Heck, I'm not even sure where I'll land in the future. I'm not as skilled as those who are capable of working without knowing shit. And now, it has crossed my mind...

Why even work?

We work to earn money. We use money to buy food, pay the bills, travel, fix things, and order the latest smartphone in the market. And then what. And then what. And then what?

Some people do not work to become rich, but to help others. Help others what?

Help others stay away from the truth, that life is cruel and merciless, there's no true order in the universe, that nothing matters in the end?

Success. Love. Fame. Fortune. Relationships. We've got all of them at the end, after pushing ourselves through too much that we forgot to take care of ourselves........

And then what?

(Ok I admit this wasn't really good lol)
 
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LivingToLong

Experienced
Feb 23, 2019
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A good eye for Americana/urban humdrum there both! :)

Yes, life is pointless. Monotony fills many an existence. But, you know, sometimes being able to see that is a powerful thing; because it means you also see endless possibility. You can step outside the norms (because you see where they are limiting you)

To see life as pointless is also to realise that you can do anything!
 
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NotSoComfortablyNumb

Another failed attempt -.-
Jan 4, 2020
36
I feel like this too. Work starts again tomorrow. Ugh another 6-4pm day of filling out health and safety reports. And for what? To pay off a credit card that I got to pay my bond with. And then there's APS and food and power and internet. I'm literally working to just pay to exist. I'd rather not exist..
 
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BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
A good eye for Americana/urban humdrum there both! :)

Yes, life is pointless. Monotony fills many an existence. But, you know, sometimes being able to see that is a powerful thing; because it means you also see endless possibility. You can step outside the norms (because you see where they are limiting you)

To see life as pointless is also to realise that you can do anything!
Stepping outside the norms would be a bliss to me if I was capable of living my life alone. Unfortunately I'm still in school.
 
Misanthrope

Misanthrope

Mage
Oct 23, 2018
557
For me it comes down to pervasive sense of awful atrocity is on the horizon, not just for me but all the people I care about. It all looks like this terrifying house of cards. Many of the base cards already on fire in many different areas, smart people are pointing at but being ignored over. From environmentalism, to debt slavery, the next recession, to corruption entrenching itself forming alarming monopolies. Complete erosion of meaningful democracy, various fictions presiding over us that have no basis in reality that are literally torturing and killing people. Pick your poison, I am sure you can present other terrifying base cards that are on fire. It fills me with a complete sense of dread. An awful awareness pain is coming. In my sickened state I can't handle it. I also can't handle seeing more of those I care about suffering because of it either. It is all just so terminally absurd at this point. The only solace I have left is the hope that the architects of this ruin feel the flames themselves and get to scream along with the rest of us! Until we become a laughable footnote in history. However I am aware I am in a bitter mood today...

Three quotes cover this feeling more succinctly than I can.

"Anti-intellectualism has been a constant thread winding its way through our political and cultural life, nurtured by the false notion that democracy means that 'my ignorance is just as good as your knowledge.'" ― Isaac Asimov

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. - J. Krishnamurti

"We learn from history that we don't learn from history." - Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel.
 
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panhandler92

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Jan 2, 2020
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It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. - J. Krishnamurti

Now here is a quote. It almost makes one feel better that they arent able to adjust and adapt to such a society, however trapped within one might be. Thanks for this quote.

And also thank you to everyone who posted here, it feels good to know I'm not alone even if it means other people feel bad too in order for that to be.
 
TowerUpright

TowerUpright

Disillusioned
May 26, 2019
602
I just see existence as a hamster wheel. People do stuff for themselves, or others. If they do it for themselves, then it is meaningless when they die. If they do things for a deity (or deities), then, well, I can only assume their God(s) are happy with their sacrifice. If they do things for other people, then THOSE people will do things for one of these three options.

Where does it end?? What is the point?

I'm sure someone will simply say Jesus, because, well, Jesus... But I can't escape this fact that it's all for nothing. From a scientific answer: Entropy says the world will all decay over time. Spiritually, even the New Testament in Revelation states the old will be burned away.

My $0.02, which I realize I'm just rambling...
 

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