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Nephy
I was only temporarily…
- Jul 17, 2024
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My decision is made - I will be leaving soon. I already have everything I need - my method is SN.
I only have this one heartfelt project that I would really like to finish. It will take a few more weeks, but my problem is that I'm not sure if I can hold on that long.
My feelings are shut off - I really don't feel anything anymore. On one hand, that's quite good because you don't feel all the negative emotions anymore, but all the other emotions are gone too.
That's why the thought keeps coming to me more and more often: 'Why wait any longer?' Isn't everything meaningless anyway? But I know that I want to finish this project because it is connected to something that was/is very important to me.
But these thoughts that it's all pointless and doesn't matter are getting louder and louder… I really hope I can hold on.
I only have this one heartfelt project that I would really like to finish. It will take a few more weeks, but my problem is that I'm not sure if I can hold on that long.
My feelings are shut off - I really don't feel anything anymore. On one hand, that's quite good because you don't feel all the negative emotions anymore, but all the other emotions are gone too.
That's why the thought keeps coming to me more and more often: 'Why wait any longer?' Isn't everything meaningless anyway? But I know that I want to finish this project because it is connected to something that was/is very important to me.
But these thoughts that it's all pointless and doesn't matter are getting louder and louder… I really hope I can hold on.