Let me be at peace

[TimeLawyer]

Warning: -rant ahead, contains expletives-not directed at anyone here on the forum-

yep fine I'm a useless waste of space if I choose to keep being myself- WHAT I DO IS WHO I AM! You idiots don't want to let me go- you don't want to allow this pain and guilt and stress to stop- you tell me I'm obligated to exhaust all options, but I am tired and I NEED LITERALLY NEED the pain to stop now. I wish I'd never been exposed to this society and it's encouragement of masochistic, obligation to suffer and try and try and try FUCK TRYING I REFUSETO BE A WARRIOR ANY MORE IM DONE. I WILL DIE "EVIL" and don't you fucking wish you had my courage. I'm saying NO MORE SUFFERING. I am not evil or maybe I am who fucking cares nobody wants to tell me it's okay to go and be at peace when i needed someone to nobody was there I don't even know what good is anymore it's just an obligation now. FUCK WESTERN SOCIETY and FUCK CAPITALISM you're so focused on morality and being right that you couldn't even let an innocent young woman die in peace after 5 years of unemployment, degradation, stress and guilt. Society did this to me. May I always be remembered, I was not evil, I just tried my best, okay no I didn't because I didn't try EVERY SINGLE OPTION IN EXISTENCE. Oh well, fuck me. I'll just go ahead and die in pain and guilt. I damn well hope I go to hell, because all the maddest, smartest, kindest people will be there too.
-Satan is out, peace-

 

[needtogo]

Warning: -rant ahead, contains expletives-not directed at anyone here on the forum-

yep fine I'm a useless waste of space if I choose to keep being myself- WHAT I DO IS WHO I AM! You idiots don't want to let me go- you don't want to allow this pain and guilt and stress to stop- you tell me I'm obligated to exhaust all options, but I am tired and I NEED LITERALLY NEED the pain to stop now. I wish I'd never been exposed to this society and it's encouragement of masochistic, obligation to suffer and try and try and try FUCK TRYING I REFUSETO BE A WARRIOR ANY MORE IM DONE. I WILL DIE "EVIL" and don't you fucking wish you had my courage. I'm saying NO MORE SUFFERING. I am not evil or maybe I am who fucking cares nobody wants to tell me it's okay to go and be at peace when i needed someone to nobody was there I don't even know what good is anymore it's just an obligation now. FUCK WESTERN SOCIETY and FUCK CAPITALISM you're so focused on morality and being right that you couldn't even let an innocent young woman die in peace after 5 years of unemployment, degradation, stress and guilt. Society did this to me. May I always be remembered, I was not evil, I just tried my best, okay no I didn't because I didn't try EVERY SINGLE OPTION IN EXISTENCE. Oh well, fuck me. I'll just go ahead and die in pain and guilt. I damn well hope I go to hell, because all the maddest, smartest, kindest people will be there too.
-Satan is out, peace-

How are you planning to ctb?

 

[Sensei]

No doubt, the system is a killer, whether it takes the form of explicit power structures or implicit social structures. The system is killing you, so maybe you should consider fighting the system? Although perhaps not very realistic, I've toyed with the idea of trying to form an urban guerrilla group like Baader-Meinhof or 17N. I must say that I find the idea of getting shot to death by the police while fighting for the greater good quite appealing.

 

[Indieblue]

I am angry at this society too..

 

[S1mpleme]

Warning: -rant ahead, contains expletives-not directed at anyone here on the forum-

yep fine I'm a useless waste of space if I choose to keep being myself- WHAT I DO IS WHO I AM! You idiots don't want to let me go- you don't want to allow this pain and guilt and stress to stop- you tell me I'm obligated to exhaust all options, but I am tired and I NEED LITERALLY NEED the pain to stop now. I wish I'd never been exposed to this society and it's encouragement of masochistic, obligation to suffer and try and try and try FUCK TRYING I REFUSETO BE A WARRIOR ANY MORE IM DONE. I WILL DIE "EVIL" and don't you fucking wish you had my courage. I'm saying NO MORE SUFFERING. I am not evil or maybe I am who fucking cares nobody wants to tell me it's okay to go and be at peace when i needed someone to nobody was there I don't even know what good is anymore it's just an obligation now. FUCK WESTERN SOCIETY and FUCK CAPITALISM you're so focused on morality and being right that you couldn't even let an innocent young woman die in peace after 5 years of unemployment, degradation, stress and guilt. Society did this to me. May I always be remembered, I was not evil, I just tried my best, okay no I didn't because I didn't try EVERY SINGLE OPTION IN EXISTENCE. Oh well, fuck me. I'll just go ahead and die in pain and guilt. I damn well hope I go to hell, because all the maddest, smartest, kindest people will be there too.
-Satan is out, peace-

I agree with you - all good and kind people for some reason die or suffer and those assholes stay alive forever.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I don't know what to say, except I care.

 

[TimeLawyer]

How are you planning to ctb?

Was thinking SN or drowning, probably going with drowning as importing anti emetics without prescription is illegal in my country...

I don't know what to say, except I care.

Thankyou I'd rather hear that than useless platitudes...

I am angry at this society too..

I think there are probably quite a few of us out there, our voices just get drowned out by the majority....

I agree with you - all good and kind people for some reason die or suffer and those assholes stay alive forever.

Honesty and doing the right thing instead of lying and stepping on others are not always rewarded sadly :(

 

[Egddios]

Was thinking SN or drowning, probably going with drowning as importing anti emetics without prescription is illegal in my country...

Thankyou I'd rather hear that than useless platitudes...

I think there are probably quite a few of us out there, our voices just get drowned out by the majority....

Honesty and doing the right thing instead of lying and stepping on others are not always rewarded sadly :(

"Honesty and doing the right thing...are not always rewarded sadly :( "

I, too, have learned this the hard way recently. Should've known better, but I foolishly had some kind of trust I wouldn't fall through the cracks.

Solidarity.