pdyduc
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- Aug 4, 2020
- 22
Im afraid of leaving behind my body for my partner to find. I dont want him to come home from work to find me, and I don't want my body to be found where ever I did the deed.
I feel like I'm drowning and my head is barely above water here. I have one close friend, but I still feel alone. I feel like there is something genuinely fundamentally wrong with me. I dont think that I can ever be happy like regular people do, how do people enjoy things? Make plans for the future? Have things that they do after work? My life revolves around being a cog in the machine but I'm too afraid to do anything about it. What could I do anyways?
Death feels inescapable. As it is. However, the thought that I can take my own future into my hands and leave is scarier. I really am not happy being alive.
I feel like I'm drowning and my head is barely above water here. I have one close friend, but I still feel alone. I feel like there is something genuinely fundamentally wrong with me. I dont think that I can ever be happy like regular people do, how do people enjoy things? Make plans for the future? Have things that they do after work? My life revolves around being a cog in the machine but I'm too afraid to do anything about it. What could I do anyways?
Death feels inescapable. As it is. However, the thought that I can take my own future into my hands and leave is scarier. I really am not happy being alive.