Help Leaving a partner, loving friends and a family

[Breadbfra]

How do you cope with the fact of the pain your family will endure? I'm talking to people who were really lucky - like me, and things like this make me wanna say, unfortunately - to have a caring family. The thought of leaving a suicide survivor (my partner), my mom, my dad and my friends haunts me everyday tremendously.

 

[Trisolaris]

I don't care anymore. I'm in so much pain that I can't stick around so others wouldn't have to endure my suicide.

 

[wunschtraum]

How do you cope with the fact of the pain your family will endure? I'm talking to people who were really lucky - like me, and things like this make me wanna say, unfortunately - to have a caring family. The thought of leaving a suicide survivor (my partner), my mom, my dad and my friends haunts me everyday tremendously.

are you healthy? (body)
why Do you want to go when you have a Familie and a Partner?
i only can ignore their pain because my body state is unbearable. I would Change with them immediatly (having a suicided child instead of this sickness)

 

[ashedout]

I feel that way too sometimes. My death would realistically hurt 3 people and it is definitely something that weighs on my mind

 

[Breadbfra]

are you healthy? (body)
why Do you want to go when you have a Familie and a Partner?
i only can ignore their pain because my body state is unbearable. I would Change with them immediatly (having a suicided child instead of this sickness)

Because I'm severely chronically depressed...

 

[life-eternal]

This is the thought that plagues me the most. I think its perfectly natural for you to feel that, and it shows that you are a caring and well meaning person to those around you. I'm on the same boat, i keep thinking of the hurt it will cause my family and my ex girlfriend and i start feeling more fucking trapped in this place because it makes me not want to do it.

I wish i felt nothing sometimes so i can just end this shit

 

[booray]

Right now, I can't think about the pain my suicide would cause my family and friends because I'm so severely depressed that I can't even function like a normal human being anymore.

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, my only consolation used to be to think something like: "I won't exist anymore, so I won't care. "

Still, it's really sad to leave behind those who love and care about you.

 

[almost done]

This is my biggest struggle in so much pain and with an abusive partner who struggles with anger and violent bi polar episodes so terrified to leave my kids with her but also wishing I Didn't leave wish I could die and my kids be safe and happy at same time . I regret ever picking my profession leave me weak to fight for myself . Anyways sorry you have to continue to suffer for others

 

[Embers]

This is my biggest struggle too.

I have a very loving caring family. It absolutely destroys me to think what my death will do to them. I've not found anything that makes this any easier to cope with, or anything that would alleviate their pain. It's awful. I'm so sorry you're feeling this too. My inbox is open if you wanna chat/vent about it?!

 

[FuneralCry]

I think for me I would write a note, telling them there was nothing they could have done and now I am at peace. It may provide some sort of closure. The fact is that I didn't ask to exist in the first place so I have no obligation to stay alive. I wouldn't suffer for the sake of others.

 

[Hotsackage]

If it weren't for my parents I'd be a tombstone

 

[SweetDreams500]

Well, you should first try whatever is available to get you out of depression. For your sake and theirs.

 

[Curiousoutlook]

This is the only reason that is holding me back right now, but I am planning to send out a scheduled email when I decide to leave. I guess I just need a little time to do what I need to do and then I'll be ready.

 

[groucho]

The thought of hurting my loved ones has kept me here for nearly 30 years, the worst part is feeling even that part of you erode away. How do you explain to someone what it's like to feel so empty it starts to overshadow your love for your family.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I am here in this position too. I don't want to ruin their lives but it's not fair to have to keep living my own ruined life.