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FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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I am addicted to over the counter laxatives called Dulcolax because I love the emotional numbness the laxatives give me and having a low weight body, my slim body is the only thing perfect in my life nothing else is. I abuse diet pills as well and restrict my eating, I can not even finish a meal.
In August 2022 I collapsed on my living room floor with no energy and the way my heart was beating it was not normal beating. Prior to the incident I took a much higher dosage of laxatives and appetite suppressants combined throughout the week.
I thought I just needed more water because there was a heatwave but the next couple of hours later I couldn't stop throwing up and the vomit was a clear liquid. I could feel my body just shutting down even walking up the stairs I found extremely difficult as I had no energy. I went to bed to sleep it off and I felt fine the next day but I was so scared I was not going to wake up. My body was so weak and i thought my heart was going to stop beating.
That was my most scariest encounter with laxatives. I admit that day I was actually terrified of death and was relieved when I was OK. My life did get better after that encounter and months later were the best months of my life. 2023 was the year everything went wrong and I finally just gave up on life. The events of 2023 has put me on the inevitable path of suicide,
I know the harm laxatives do and I don't care anymore.
In August 2022 I collapsed on my living room floor with no energy and the way my heart was beating it was not normal beating. Prior to the incident I took a much higher dosage of laxatives and appetite suppressants combined throughout the week.
I thought I just needed more water because there was a heatwave but the next couple of hours later I couldn't stop throwing up and the vomit was a clear liquid. I could feel my body just shutting down even walking up the stairs I found extremely difficult as I had no energy. I went to bed to sleep it off and I felt fine the next day but I was so scared I was not going to wake up. My body was so weak and i thought my heart was going to stop beating.
That was my most scariest encounter with laxatives. I admit that day I was actually terrified of death and was relieved when I was OK. My life did get better after that encounter and months later were the best months of my life. 2023 was the year everything went wrong and I finally just gave up on life. The events of 2023 has put me on the inevitable path of suicide,
I know the harm laxatives do and I don't care anymore.