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Hey there kiddos, this is your favorite ex cop/current convict COP2CON. Todays lesson is about what happens when you die from suicide from a law enforcement stand point. I dealt with many of these calls and have extensive experience. While I was patrol, because we were short I got to do a lot of investigator work as well and have seen the entire process start to finish. My goal is to educate and if I'm lucky, maybe this will be a sticky and my life will be complete as I will be forever immortal. Please note, this will be hard to hear as I saw the aftermath and will be blunt about it. Its why I continue to want everyone to choose life ( I know I'm a hypocrite). I have seen the other half of what happens. Also to note, this is mainly how law enforcement agencies in the US investigate suicide and while there are always a few differences, overall almost every law enforcement agency will do things the same or similar. This first part is for normal deceased person calls, I will discuss special circumstances the end. Let's begin.......

Suicide is classified as a sudden death and pretty much everywhere is subject to a full investigation by law enforcement. That means crime scene processing, detectives, warrants, the whole shabang. When someone is found deceased usually emergency services are called(9-1-1). Immediately EMS (ambulance) and law enforcement are simultaneously dispatched. Dispatch may advise that it is reported as suicide but it is always a "deceased person" until the investigation is complete, no matter how clear cut.

Law enforcement usually arrives first and if someone is on scene to allow entry, law enforcement will enter to "clear" (safety sweep)the residence/location. They will then check on the deceased person and the area to see any immediate evidence of foul play or safety hazards. Sometimes EMS will arrive first and when law enforcement gets there they will do the same thing regardless. If you appear "fresh", the cop may try CPR and life saving measures. Same with EMS but if its estimated you've been gone longer than like 15-20 minutes, all that is done is EMS attaches AED ( Automated External Defibulator)pads to get a flat line read out and then they call it. If you've been down awhile and both rigor and liver mortis are present then it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure it out and nothing is done.

Usually law enforcement will linger inside but will eventually back out to wait for investigators, the coroner/medical examiner, and warrants. Some states do not need warrants as long as the coroner is there doing the work. I have been a coroner "helper" many times. Pictures are taken of the body, the area around, the whole house or wherever, generally EVERYTHING is photographed. Possessions are gone through and usually a pile is made of what is going to be taken into evidence. Note: if it is a big department with a crime scene unit, its a little more CSI'ish but smaller areas its a little more relaxed. Also, usually its standard to take any phones, computers or laptops, or any communication device into evidence. We took a PlayStation once.

After the first evidence sweep is done and after the coroner gives the OK, the body is moved. More photos are taken. Sometimes pockets are gone through, sometimes not depending on procedure. The coroner and his team ( or in the case of where I worked, me or anyone else) then put the body in a body bag. It is not gentle and is usually a pain in the ass. It is just a meat sack at that point. Please also note: may God have mercy on your soul if you die upstairs. Even if someone was dead, by the time we carried them down the stairs I wanted to throat punch them repeatedly. I have also dropped bodies down the stairs on 2 occasions because they are f'ing heavy.

Anyhoo, the coroner takes the body to whatever morgue/cooler that they use. A second evidence sweep is made, everything properly bagged, and the scene is exited. About this time, someone is usually making contact with the next of kin. Out of the many deceased persons I worked, I NEVER ONCE had one that no one loved and wasn't devastated so think about that. Informing next of kin sucks, you just have to be blunt and if they survive hearing their loved one is gone they might not when you tell them it is suspected to be suicide. I usually had EMS waiting in the street when I made notifications.

The loved one is told basic details but usually not much and that the investigation is pending and they will be contacted. They are given the coroners information so they can coordinate what will happen to the remains. The cop then goes back in service and does a basic report on the matter which is transferred to the investigators for further investigation.

Your body in most places goes to the "morgue" which in a lot of places is an equipment shed with coolers. Paperwork is done and the body is left. Most states as I stated above, require an autopsy for any sudden or unexpected death, suicide included. There is usually no way around it and your body will be taken to a state crime lab or sometimes a state medical examiner will travel to a location. An autopsy is performed usually quickly but there are horror stories of bodies waiting months for autopsy. Suspected suicides are low priorty to murders or overall unknown causes of death. Your body is eventually released to your loved ones to dispose of how they see fit. I could give a brief overview of the funerary process but that might be another thread. Note, blood is taken nearly immediately to be used for a Tox screen.

The investigation into the deceased person (suspected suicide) case goes on. Pretty much everyone you have associated with will be contacted. Family, friends, work mates, neighbors, everyone recent in your phone, sometimes even people you have emailed. Warrants will have been issued to download and search all data from any devices. Usually starts with Cellebrite but every investigations bureau has direct lines with Apple, Google, Facebook, and many other places. Its extremely difficult to purge your data and most of the time it can be mostly recovered. Once someone is dead, most companies see no reason to keep their privacy and no matter what is advertised, they will work with law enforcement in a heartbeat. All thats needed is a warrant which is super easy to get when someone's dead.

Evidence is processed, maybe sent to state labs, autopsy results come back, and sometimes months later, it is all formally declared a suicide. An investigators report is completed and the case closed. What they say about the ones left behind is true and for months they will call anyone associated with the case because most people cannot accept it. They asked us questions we didn't know the answer to or didn't have the heart to tell them. It really is torture for them and they also have a high suicide/mortality rate.

Why is all this done? CYA, Cover Your Ass. A straight up looking suicide or any death for that matter can be murder or lead other directions. I have seen a obvious looking suicide be a murder. I had one that while it was a suicide, it occurred because he was involved in a rather complex synthetic drug dealing ring. The case later went federal. Others ended up as accidental rather than suicide. No matter how clear cut you think it could be, it can always be something else.

So below I will list some special circumstances stuff outside of the regular "found at home" death. Its not all inclusive, just what I can think of at the moment.

*If at a residence or general building and a death or person down is reported inside, law enforcement may enter without a warrant due to "exigent circumstances". That includes forcing entry. This is done if no one can let law enforcement or EMS in.

* EMS generally cannot force their way into a home or structure and must wait for law enforcement.

* If you die of fentanyl, it is extremely dangerous for first responders no matter where you are. It is a courtesy to leave a note at the point of entry or in an obvious place away from immediate area. Same goes for chemical gas suicides.

*If someone dies out in the middle of nowhere, the process is still the same. Once the person is identified, the process unfolds about the same. If initially unidentifiable then it takes longer as missing person reports must be tediously gone through with the information a medical examiner or forensic anthropologist provides.

*For people thinking they will just disappear, its very hard to do. Unless you have never exited your house or used an electronic device, there is a paper trail. Sometimes it takes awhile but the majority of people are located and identified.

*Merely going into the woods does not mean someone won't be found. Bodies smell and its a very distinct smell, different from a dead animal if you can believe it. It carries a long way and most people will notice.

* If no one finds a deceased person for awhile, decomposition sets in. It literally ruins everything in the area and loved ones get pissed when they get told they can't have a lot of the possessions. Its a biohazard so anything in the general area of a decomposing body gets disposed of. Applies to messy deaths as well. Also 4 or 5 day old decomposed body in the heat, stinks. The smell WILL NOT come out of certain fabrics. I have thrown away a few uniform shirts because no amount of washing got rid of the smell.

* Related to above, if indoors, a particularly messy death such as 12 gauge shotgun in the mouth or someone who is not found quickly, costs a lot of money. Its not simply remove the body and use bleach to clean the area. Most states have laws and regulatons saying what must be done. I have seen someone suck start a shotgun and it cost $75,000 to properly repair and sanitize the room. A decomposing body cost $30,000 because it took a month, numerous chemical treatments, and new drywall to get rid of the smell. Families and property owners are responsible for the bill or else they can be red tagged and declared uninhabitable.

* The body removal process is not pretty. I have seen someone die while sitting at a built in desk. He was in full rigor and the coroner ended up breaking both of his legs to get him out. It was my first body call (an OD that was planned and accidental at the same time) and I nearly lost it. Breaking bones sucks. I once saw someone who died after getting hit by a car. The coroner just happened to be right there in his personal pick up truck. What was left of the body was put in a bag and thrown in the bed of his truck.

* If someone lives with another person, it is a courtesy to let the other person know such as waiting till they are gone and leaving a note at the point of entry. There was one where a guy made a legit, good helium hood. He made his exit and his family reported him after he had not checked in for a month. They waited so long because the knew he had been busy with work. His roommate wasn't close to him and never paid attention. Said roommate also had a disorder where he constantly smelled garbage/rotting meat all the time. By the time the guy was found, his entire head had melted into the bottom of the hood and only a skull was left. The rest of the body wasn't too bad but the hood accelerated decomposition on the head.

* A note, a deceased person is obviously always found by someone. In the case of traumatic deaths someone, a neighbor, friend, family member, first responders, etc. will find the remains. For non first responders, it is traumatic and can lead to numerous mental health issues. For first responders, the same applies. I was not trained by my state or agency in any way to see the F-ed up things I saw, smelled, tasted, felt, or heard. First responders may see it regularly and some are OK but many will remember it forever. Its equally traumatic. Do not think no one is affected if its first responders that are the first ones to find someone.

*Finally, also stated above, I have never had a suicide where no one cared. There was ALWAYS at least one person whom was devastated. Please try to talk to someone and if the don't listen or dont seem to care, try someone else. Keep going because I guarantee you'll find someone.

That sums it up for now. There are things I probably overlooked but its taken hours for me to type this. I can try to answer questions but again, I was a US cop, I don't know specifics on other countries. I just feel like everyone should be informed to the best of my knowledge if it helps. Sorry for spelling errors and typos and such....its a lot and my autocorrect does not catch much.
 
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Sorry m.o.d.s I'll stop editing it lol. Only comment updates from now on :-)
 
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Never seen a thread quite like this with exception to the one a mortician posted last year.
 
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I'm pretty sure families don't need to pay anything in public spaces and they are only responsible for cleanups in their homes, but I don't know if it's different in your country (USA?) nvm I just read the last small paragraph
 
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I'm pretty sure families don't need to pay anything in public spaces and they are only responsible for cleanups in their homes, but I don't know if it's different in your country (USA?)
With public spaces it depends on if there is any property damage whether private or public. They will actually file on the estate of the deceased and recover whatever they need to repair. No damage no payment usually unless EMS sends a bill for pretending to do something. Usually if its "messy" we just called the fire department to hose it all down.
Never seen a thread quite like this with exception to the one a mortician posted last year.
I decided to do it after browsing and seeing questions like this or people not quite grasping how things go. If your going to make a decision as important as this, I think one should have an abundance of information from all sides.
 
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Wow! Thank you so much for writing this up for all of us. That is very informative! I tried researching a while back what would happen after we pass but the Info was very vague for the most part. While some info is hard to swallow, it helps tremendously. I'd rather be educated than naive.

While i am german i assume not everything is exactly the same here but i assume it gets pretty close.

(Btw, i hope you are keeping your head up and they are treating you well in prison. American prison seems to be very rough.)
 
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Wow! Thank you so much for writing this up for all of us. That is very informative! I tried researching a while back what would happen after we pass but the Info was very vague for the most part. While some info is hard to swallow, it helps tremendously. I'd rather be educated than naive.

While i am german i assume not everything is exactly the same here but i assume it gets pretty close.

(Btw, i hope you are keeping your head up and they are treating you well in prison. American prison seems to be very rough.)
Prison does suck but then again so does my life so I guess we are made for each other lol. Fun fact, I visited your wonderful country like 2 months before I was arrested.
 
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That is a very detailed and informative post. Thank you for taking the time to type it all out.

I have a rather personal question. My landlord is a retired cop and I'm trying to avoid the situation of him discovering my dead body.

I expect you have seen many suicides as you are an ex cop. Does it get easier, does it become less impactful the more experience you have?
 
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If a family doesn't wish to put out a statement about how a person has died... is their any legal way a outside person from the family can get information on another person's death especially if they know it was suicide?
 
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That is a very detailed and informative post. Thank you for taking the time to type it all out.

I have a rather personal question. My landlord is a retired cop and I'm trying to avoid the situation of him discovering my dead body.

I expect you have seen many suicides as you are an ex cop. Does it get easier, does it become less impactful the more experience you have?
I initially thought so but I was putting on a front. I'm literally haunted by all the death I had to deal with. Some guys are tough but I also notice they drink or do drugs or can't keep a spouse or just general self destructive behavior. If your landlord is a retired cop he will find a reason to go in. Some places a landlord is allowed to do what's called an administrative search of their property without notice. I nearly shot a maintainance man who burst into my apartment unannounced to check the smoke detector.
If a family doesn't wish to put out a statement about how a person has died... is their any legal way a outside person from the family can get information on another person's death especially if they know it was suicide?
In the US its called an open records act request. Its the freedom if information act but most states have their own as well. You can request a copy of the redacted report for a small fee. Usually in a police report you have the narrative which is vague and for public viewing and then the supplemental which is all the gory details and is only given out with a open records request. Most law enforcement agency websites detail how to file a request with them.
 
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Amazing post. Smell is interesting. Something to consider for methods, not wanting family members to deal with that
 
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It all boils down to once you are dead NOTHING matters.

Too many people get caught up on how will family deal, who will find my body, ect. If you are truly done with your life NOTHING matters.
 
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It all boils down to once you are dead NOTHING matters.

Too many people get caught up on how will family deal, who will find my body, ect. If you are truly done with your life NOTHING matters.
was waiting for someone to say this….
 
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Warrants will have been issued to download and search all data from any devices.
So safe to assume theyd find us on this site? And see our user and what we posted?
I wonder about ChatGPT. I've put a lot of stuff in there too. Questions to help with methods for example
 
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Thank you for taking the time to post this. It's interesting to read it from the other side. Also to have more ways of trying to be considerate to the people left having to deal with the aftermath. It sounds like a nightmare pretty much though- whatever we decide to do.

But then- that's why they ought to allow assisted suicide for more people. Those facilities would be designed to deal with all these issues. Our families would be informed. They could even be there if they wanted. There would be absolutely no need for police and an expensive investigation. They can spend their time catching criminals rather than trying to establish whether a person was miserable enough to do this to themselves.

Our society shoots itself in the foot by denying people who are suffering a dignified, peaceful and clean way out. I do feel bad it falls on the emergency services and multiple others to deal with the mess but then- that's ultimately more emotional blackmail to try and force people to stay here. Which isn't fair- surely?

I absolutely 100% think we ought to consider how our actions may affect others and try to make their jobs easier where we can. But to be emotionally blackmailed and held captive here makes no effort to acknowledge what we might be going through.

It also assumes that we owe people things. Definitely- we should try not to hurt them but- what if they've hurt us- repeatedly throughout our lives? Even just birthing us here was exposing us to risk. Why do we owe so much to the people and society that may well have caused our ideation to begin with?

Sadly- it could well be an innocent party left to tidy up the mess- emergency services etc. While I have the greatest admiration and respect for them- they did realise that was possible when they entered the job. Absolutely- they shouldn't be put at physical risk. But- they knew it would be an emotional job.

I think at least part of the blame needs to go on a society that likely doesn't support workers in such demanding jobs. But- effectively blaming the suicidal person for the mess they left? When they would have gladly and gratefully died mess and hassle and (tax payer) cost free in a specialised clinic? That feels somewhat of a low blow.

It was all still very interesting and important to consider though so- thank you.
 
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Interesting I researched a lot about this topic what the police will do once they arrive to the scene and I read that it is possible for the police to get your data from apple, google etc but what I wonder is what if the person will delete all his stuff even his backups and everything that was saved on iCloud and then he will either hide his phone somewhere where they won't find it or he will simply physically destroy the phone what then? Can they request your data by finding out your phone number and then the one number can somehow be Connected to your former apple id which you deleted?

And also what I'd really like to know: were there cases in which you arrived at the scene and the person failed his suicide if so whats next? I mean okay at first the person will probably go to a normal hospital to get checked up and heal his wounds but would the cops really just come to the hospital once the person has recovered fully and tell him yo now its time for some weeks/months in the psychiatric hospital and then they get him in the police car with handcuffs and drive him there?

Which suicide method had the least scary aftermath?
Did the people who died by hanging still look normal without any damage besides the mark on their neck?
 
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Interesting I researched a lot about this topic what the police will do once they arrive to the scene and I read that it is possible for the police to get your data from apple, google etc but what I wonder is what if the person will delete all his stuff even his backups and everything that was saved on iCloud and then he will either hide his phone somewhere where they won't find it or he will simply physically destroy the phone what then? Can they request your data by finding out your phone number and then the one number can somehow be Connected to your former apple id which you deleted?

And also what I'd really like to know: were there cases in which you arrived at the scene and the person failed his suicide if so whats next? I mean okay at first the person will probably go to a normal hospital to get checked up and heal his wounds but would the cops really just come to the hospital once the person has recovered fully and tell him yo now its time for some weeks/months in the psychiatric hospital and then they get him in the police car with handcuffs and drive him there?

Which suicide method had the least scary aftermath?
Did the people who died by hanging still look normal without any damage besides the mark on their neck?
Cops don't show up at the hospital once you've recovered to inform you or drive you, as there is a psych ward in every hospital. You would simply be transferred from your hospital room to another room in the psych ward.
 
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Thank you for taking the time to post this. It's interesting to read it from the other side. Also to have more ways of trying to be considerate to the people left having to deal with the aftermath. It sounds like a nightmare pretty much though- whatever we decide to do.

But then- that's why they ought to allow assisted suicide for more people. Those facilities would be designed to deal with all these issues. Our families would be informed. They could even be there if they wanted. There would be absolutely no need for police and an expensive investigation. They can spend their time catching criminals rather than trying to establish whether a person was miserable enough to do this to themselves.

Our society shoots itself in the foot by denying people who are suffering a dignified, peaceful and clean way out. I do feel bad it falls on the emergency services and multiple others to deal with the mess but then- that's ultimately more emotional blackmail to try and force people to stay here. Which isn't fair- surely?

I absolutely 100% think we ought to consider how our actions may affect others and try to make their jobs easier where we can. But to be emotionally blackmailed and held captive here makes no effort to acknowledge what we might be going through.

It also assumes that we owe people things. Definitely- we should try not to hurt them but- what if they've hurt us- repeatedly throughout our lives? Even just birthing us here was exposing us to risk. Why do we owe so much to the people and society that may well have caused our ideation to begin with?

Sadly- it could well be an innocent party left to tidy up the mess- emergency services etc. While I have the greatest admiration and respect for them- they did realise that was possible when they entered the job. Absolutely- they shouldn't be put at physical risk. But- they knew it would be an emotional job.

I think at least part of the blame needs to go on a society that likely doesn't support workers in such demanding jobs. But- effectively blaming the suicidal person for the mess they left? When they would have gladly and gratefully died mess and hassle and (tax payer) cost free in a specialised clinic? That feels somewhat of a low blow.

It was all still very interesting and important to consider though so- thank you.
Forgive me, I feel I need to elaborate. I did not mean to try to strong arm people away from their decision. I know some people want to try to think of everything and my thoughts on the matter were just an addition. I said what I said about first responders because yes, we were told we may see bad things. Sure enough you have fatality wrecks, workplace accidents, murders, etc. What I was trying to get across I guess is that if someone is really planning it out there are a few courtesies thast can be done such as note placement and even putting method in the note. If I kick down a door, I usually had no idea what was on the other side. An OD was not as bad as a hanging, a 9mm to the brain not as bad as a 12 gauge, slitting wrists not as bad as a throat. While getting slimmer, a fair amount of public safety do it just to help people. I took a pay cut to be a cop and actually qualified for food stamps at one time. I have said it before, I respect peoples decisions and I do understand. I have thought about suicide every day for 30 years with no explainantion. I have had guns in my mouth, self harmed, been hospitalized in a mental hospital twice, OD'd once. I get it. But some of this is important to others and sometimes people are curious of the other side. I fully agree with you that there should be government run, good treatment facilities. Most of the owned including my state are hell holes and I hated having to people there. It took me hours to write this and it was a lot for me to try to put into the right words and I do apologive for how some of it sounds. I just wanted everyone to understand. Would not seeing some of that affected me different? Maybe, but I'm thinking of people down the line now even though Imno longer a supported of law enforcement. I know the thoughts and feelings I have felt for many years I wouldn't wish on anyone. I appreciate you pointing it out, I posted this very early in the morning and obviously missed my mark in some areas lol.
Cops don't show up at the hospital once you've recovered to inform you or drive you, as there is a psych ward in every hospital. You would simply be transferred from your hospital room to another room in the psych ward.
No, not every hospital has a psych ward, I had to transport involuntary commitments to facilities all over my state. Its the duty of law enforcement unless an approved transport company is used.
Cops don't show up at the hospital once you've recovered to inform you or drive you, as there is a psych ward in every hospital. You would simply be transferred from your hospital room to another room in the psych ward.
No, not every hospital has a psych ward, I had to transport involuntary commitments to facilities all over my state. Its the duty of law enforcement unless an approved transport company is used.
Interesting I researched a lot about this topic what the police will do once they arrive to the scene and I read that it is possible for the police to get your data from apple, google etc but what I wonder is what if the person will delete all his stuff even his backups and everything that was saved on iCloud and then he will either hide his phone somewhere where they won't find it or he will simply physically destroy the phone what then? Can they request your data by finding out your phone number and then the one number can somehow be Connected to your former apple id which you deleted?

And also what I'd really like to know: were there cases in which you arrived at the scene and the person failed his suicide if so whats next? I mean okay at first the person will probably go to a normal hospital to get checked up and heal his wounds but would the cops really just come to the hospital once the person has recovered fully and tell him yo now its time for some weeks/months in the psychiatric hospital and then they get him in the police car with handcuffs and drive him there?

Which suicide method had the least scary aftermath?
Did the people who died by hanging still look normal without any damage besides the mark on their neck?
With data I'm not 100% sure on the companies anymore and their policies. Usually by then the case was with an investigator to do the boringstuff and I would follow up later to see what was found. They get to sit in offices all day doing their work while I had to work all my cases from my Charger.

For a failed suicide which is usually the majority of suicide calls, person goes to the hospital. They are put under observation by security and/or law enforcement until they can he dischsrged. Usually an involuntary commitment is signed on them and they are sent to a psych ward if the hospital has one or transported by law enforcement or a designated transport company to another facility. If transported by law enforcement for any reason usually is policy to handcuff. Usual initial involuntary commitment is for 72 hours with a doctor at the facility deciding if it should be longer.

Least messed up death is hard because people can die that same way but have different reactions. One might take fentanyl and look like he's sleeping while another may have vommitted or rolled off the bed and hit their head, etc.

Hanging usually leaves a mark and the neck is elongated. Its weird looking. Sometimes some vomit comes out onthem and the eyes are bulged.
 
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Forgive me, I feel I need to elaborate. I did not mean to try to strong arm people away from their decision. I know some people want to try to think of everything and my thoughts on the matter were just an addition. I said what I said about first responders because yes, we were told we may see bad things. Sure enough you have fatality wrecks, workplace accidents, murders, etc. What I was trying to get across I guess is that if someone is really planning it out there are a few courtesies thast can be done such as note placement and even putting method in the note. If I kick down a door, I usually had no idea what was on the other side. An OD was not as bad as a hanging, a 9mm to the brain not as bad as a 12 gauge, slitting wrists not as bad as a throat. While getting slimmer, a fair amount of public safety do it just to help people. I took a pay cut to be a cop and actually qualified for food stamps at one time. I have said it before, I respect peoples decisions and I do understand. I have thought about suicide every day for 30 years with no explainantion. I have had guns in my mouth, self harmed, been hospitalized in a mental hospital twice, OD'd once. I get it. But some of this is important to others and sometimes people are curious of the other side. I fully agree with you that there should be government run, good treatment facilities. Most of the owned including my state are hell holes and I hated having to people there. It took me hours to write this and it was a lot for me to try to put into the right words and I do apologive for how some of it sounds. I just wanted everyone to understand. Would not seeing some of that affected me different? Maybe, but I'm thinking of people down the line now even though Imno longer a supported of law enforcement. I know the thoughts and feelings I have felt for many years I wouldn't wish on anyone. I appreciate you pointing it out, I posted this very early in the morning and obviously missed my mark in some areas lol.

No, not every hospital has a psych ward, I had to transport involuntary commitments to facilities all over my state. Its the duty of law enforcement unless an approved transport company is used.

I feel I should apologise too. It didn't come across as a totally pragmatic- don't be selfish post. And I do actually think we should be trying to consider those left to deal with the aftermath.

Even in as much as I think it can suggest we were absolutely of sound mind- we planned it down to the last detail so as to inconvenience and hurt people as little as possible.

I'm actually grateful you did go into so much detail. I do actually worry about the people left to deal with my body etc. I have considered both dying upstairs or, in the garage. Upstairs would obviously be more comfortable for me but- I have worried about the difficulty in getting my body down the stairs. I thought dying on thick plastic might help there. We once did fire training in a care home I worked at and, we pulled each other down the stairs on a plastic mattress. But then, maybe the garage would be easier on them. I guess dying inside a body bag could look a little odd! More like a homicide probably! Someone pointed out you could actually buy them the other day!

But, I think I do understand where you're coming from. It would almost be more perverse to hope that others suicide! Of course, it's nicer to hope that they have the potential to recover. And, maybe some people do- I hope they do too.

My frustration really is with society I suppose. It's utterly unfair that people such as yourselves are left to deal with the aftermath of a brutal suicide. I do actually support all of us trying to find methods that are less impactful. I do have SN although, it's expiring soon. There again- I'm also angry with society that people are left so desperate that they resort to such methods. The really heart breaking ones where it's been a partner who has shot their partner to relieve them from pain. I think there was a case of a someone who did that in the hospital. It really didn't sound like homicide either. I think they tried to suicide afterwards but failed. But, that we are left with that and- they end up in prison most likely- utterly horrifies me.

Actually, I wonder if you can clear something up for me please? Do they always get someone to identify the body do you know? That bothers me. My hope is that, when I go, I won't have close family left. Only step relations, distant relatives and friends. I really don't want them having to experience that. For one- because they live hundreds of miles away! Do you think they'll go from dental records if I requested that? Can they check alongside a pastport? Surely, if you die where you live, they're more likely to think it is in fact you?

I'm sorry to have been so feisty though. I can see that you do see it from both sides and just want to clear up what exactly happens. I'm sure it will be a helpful resource to many. I also can't even imagine what you've seen. All that has to stay with you.

Do you have any access to YouTube or anything? I sometimes watch a channel by Ben Pearson. He was formally on a show called: Police Inteceptors. But, he was talking about his career. That you are basically carrying an invisible sack around with you- that gets filled up with trauma. His last straw was attending a road collision where a child had died. I can understand how that could push anyone over the edge. I think it's remarkable people choose to do that job.
 
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I really appreciate the comprehensive information you provided! Even from a non-suicidal perspective, I have a passion for learning about the processes involved in death and this was a unique insight I didn't realize I lacked before. I think if someone is going to end it (is the term CTB? im still new and im not 100% on what the acronyms are or what stuff means) they should have all the information about what will likely happen at their disposal. I know there are plenty who don't care about those they're leaving behind (no judgement) but for those of us who would potentially leave people we love behind, it's good to know what they might go through and to take that into account.

Also, question: You mentioned that the body will be held until the autopsy, which could take months, but I was wondering if there were ever exceptions. Like, Jewish burials generally happen as soon as possible, specifically within 24 hours. I remember my dad overdosed and I think he was buried very soon after, so I'm wondering if they do anything different if that's the case.
 

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