Lately I can’t stop thinking about negative stuff… and it just results with a wish to be able to kill myself

[Kitana]

I wish it wouldn't be like that, that my thoughts aren't negative but it seems so impossible and it's damaging my relationship too, since it has been like that for a longer period of time now and it gets harder to hide it. Not only that it brings me back in a habit I try so much to avoid. My habit to starve and looking for accessible ways to end my life.
Not even the thought of being reborn in a even worse situation doesn't scare me anymore, since I know I wouldn't survive that anyways.

Maybe it could be easier with some understanding friends because I honestly have none. So you guys can add me on discord: yme#3454

Sadly I cant PM other people yet thats why discord must be the solution.

 

[outrider567]

Welcome to the club

 

[FuneralCry]

There certainly is no real relief from suffering in this world, I'm sorry that life is torturing you, there is just nothing fair about any of this.