Late self diagnosed autistic 😔

[Spiritual survivor]

I think I'm really ready to go now. I don't think I can do homelessness. I can't function anymore. It's so scary to have to try to end your life I'm pretty old tho. I have some SN from 2022 I hope it works still.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

I always say that if you are on the spectrum you live life on hard mode. It's not fair.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

It's horrible how so many people are suffering extremely like you and i've talked to so many others here also suffering.

 

[zjay-0v3rit!]

Wondering what is your age and what is your method to diagnose? If you dont to answer thats ok. Sorry that youre in pain.

 

[DustInTheWind]

I really feel this. I have struggled through my whole life, pushing 30 and have never been able to keep a job for a long time, never been enough. Didn't finish my masters either. And the expectations from family and friends to "just work" or "just get a job" are heavy and painful even though I try my best. It's like they expect me to be like everyone else when they know I got issues. I will probably never be happy, never felt like I've been a part of society and their social pressures.

Luckily, I got someone, a single person who understands this, supports me and is the only reason I have not CTB yet.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Wondering what is your age and what is your method to diagnose? If you dont to answer thats ok. Sorry that youre in pain.

47F, I took the Raads R I think it's called. I scored a 196 which is very high for autism. But was diagnosed adhd at 25, they missed the autism aspect. On tik tok there's many creators discussing in depth on what autism is like. I match all the traits and experiences every other person on there deals with. Slipped thru the cracks and being female often we are missed entirely. I survived much of my life thru sex work which has ruined my life but at least it was always an option. I've wanted to quit using it as an option though since it's considered a sin.

 

[ADBoy777]

I'm sorry for your suffering, must be hard
Best wishes I hope you will manage to do it

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.