notfromthisworld
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- Dec 12, 2024
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Hi.
I'm new to this website and I hope that I'm welcome to post my story.
I came to realize that I'm not from this world. I always felt this feeling that someone's calling me from a distance that I should go home even though I'm already at home.The feeling of missing someone.
Then I remember that i made a promise to someone who's very close to my heart when I was just 14 years old, tha I will leave everything behind just to be with her because at that time I'm at my lowest point and there is nothing that I can lean on. Except her.
She doesn't exist in this reality but I'm 100% sure that somewhere outside this reality and outside this universe, I will able to meet and see her.
She's always by my side when I need her,
She always listen to me without any judgment whether it's a problem or just a random thought.
Then one day, when I'm just casually watching the sunset I heard a voice...
A voice that's very familiar, then she's the only one that only pops into my mind.
A tiny voice that saying "Let's go home..."
Then just like a needle just pierce into my heart and my tears just came out...
The pain that I felt from that time is unbearable.
It's like I lost someone that's very important to me.
Then when I got home, I just got to my room and starts crying...
I just keep saying
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being late"
"I'm sorry if I just notice you"
"I'm sorry my love..."
Then after hours of crying, I got tired and didn't notice that I already fell asleep.
Then a dream happen.
I saw her...I saw her in a long orange dress in a large tree, a sakura tree and the leaves are already falling and he strong but calming wind that passing by.
I faintly saw her saying..." Let's go home my love..." then her tears just starts falling and when I start coming towards her, I just suddenly woke up.
My eyes hurt
My chest hurt
Everything hurts so bad.
Days, weeks, months, and years passed by and the dream still hunts me.
But every time when Christmas is around, I always tell to her when I look to the stars that I will go home soon. But the worth part, it's been 5 years since then and I'm still here.
It's just frustrating and painful.
Being with her also have a LOT of benefits, my parents won't have to worry about me ever again
I'll finally free from being a burden.
Not being around means more resources for my siblings
And I'll be free from this world.
But I can't move on.
I'm too scared, too numb to do anything to get there.
But this year, I finally decided to go.
Not because I want to leave this reality but to save her and be with her for eternity because that's where I suppose to be.
I want to celebrate Christmas with her for the first time and all of the events that we missed.
I will finally able to propose to her...
I will finally able make up to her...
I will finally able to see her face, her smile, her laugh, her sadness, all of her emotions...
I will finally ale to find happiness and peace by being with her...
I will finally able to free my self and return all of the people that I be with for the last 19 years to there place...
I will finally able to rest and have the eternal slumber that I always wish...
I hope we will find our own place here on this planet, but if not try to look for different perspective, maybe someone is just waiting for you to feel, hear, notice her/him.
To wrap this up, tha k you for reading my short story and I hope you understand what I just wrote because I'm not that good in writing in english.
Time to go now...
Merry Christmas everyone...
I'll be going now...
Sunsets and stars...
-notfromthisworld
I'm new to this website and I hope that I'm welcome to post my story.
I came to realize that I'm not from this world. I always felt this feeling that someone's calling me from a distance that I should go home even though I'm already at home.The feeling of missing someone.
Then I remember that i made a promise to someone who's very close to my heart when I was just 14 years old, tha I will leave everything behind just to be with her because at that time I'm at my lowest point and there is nothing that I can lean on. Except her.
She doesn't exist in this reality but I'm 100% sure that somewhere outside this reality and outside this universe, I will able to meet and see her.
She's always by my side when I need her,
She always listen to me without any judgment whether it's a problem or just a random thought.
Then one day, when I'm just casually watching the sunset I heard a voice...
A voice that's very familiar, then she's the only one that only pops into my mind.
A tiny voice that saying "Let's go home..."
Then just like a needle just pierce into my heart and my tears just came out...
The pain that I felt from that time is unbearable.
It's like I lost someone that's very important to me.
Then when I got home, I just got to my room and starts crying...
I just keep saying
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being late"
"I'm sorry if I just notice you"
"I'm sorry my love..."
Then after hours of crying, I got tired and didn't notice that I already fell asleep.
Then a dream happen.
I saw her...I saw her in a long orange dress in a large tree, a sakura tree and the leaves are already falling and he strong but calming wind that passing by.
I faintly saw her saying..." Let's go home my love..." then her tears just starts falling and when I start coming towards her, I just suddenly woke up.
My eyes hurt
My chest hurt
Everything hurts so bad.
Days, weeks, months, and years passed by and the dream still hunts me.
But every time when Christmas is around, I always tell to her when I look to the stars that I will go home soon. But the worth part, it's been 5 years since then and I'm still here.
It's just frustrating and painful.
Being with her also have a LOT of benefits, my parents won't have to worry about me ever again
I'll finally free from being a burden.
Not being around means more resources for my siblings
And I'll be free from this world.
But I can't move on.
I'm too scared, too numb to do anything to get there.
But this year, I finally decided to go.
Not because I want to leave this reality but to save her and be with her for eternity because that's where I suppose to be.
I want to celebrate Christmas with her for the first time and all of the events that we missed.
I will finally able to propose to her...
I will finally able make up to her...
I will finally able to see her face, her smile, her laugh, her sadness, all of her emotions...
I will finally ale to find happiness and peace by being with her...
I will finally able to free my self and return all of the people that I be with for the last 19 years to there place...
I will finally able to rest and have the eternal slumber that I always wish...
I hope we will find our own place here on this planet, but if not try to look for different perspective, maybe someone is just waiting for you to feel, hear, notice her/him.
To wrap this up, tha k you for reading my short story and I hope you understand what I just wrote because I'm not that good in writing in english.
Time to go now...
Merry Christmas everyone...
I'll be going now...
Sunsets and stars...
-notfromthisworld
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