Last supper

[ladolcemorte]

I have decided to go back to my bridge...I mean, what are the chances of getting pulled off twice?

But first, a last supper of chicken fajitas at my favourite restaurant

 

[Alec]

Hope these are as delicious as they look Good luck in finding your way

 

[wanttodie.nz]

That is indeed a good feast. Keep us updated so we can keep you company

 

[FF777]

I like the sauce packets: "go ahead, get messy"..........If they only knew..

 

[ladolcemorte]

That is indeed a good feast. Keep us updated so we can keep you company

Okay, so it ended up not being the last supper. But it was delicious. I was on a pass from the hospital, after having been pulled off the bridge. I was originally planning on going to the airport instead of the hospital and flying back to the city where my bridge is. I decided to come back to the hospital because I was worried about what they would do if I didn't get back to the hospital on time. They may well send the police to my bridge...

I should probably wait until they discharge me from the hospital, which shouldn't be too long from now.

 

[TAW122]

Mmm, looks good and your last supper should just be whatever you like, whatever you fancy and enjoy. For me, I would probably either go for sushi or maybe some nice burgers/comfort food. Speaking of that, I may have the "last supper" near my CTB time (if I do end up going about CTB'ing), but immediately before it as it may interfere with my resolve or so, but that's just me. Ultimately, only you know how much time you want in between the last supper and the moment in which you decide to attempt CTB.

 

[FF777]

I should probably wait until they discharge me

Probably not a bad idea.. You definitely wouldn't want to get caught a second time.. Just hang in there long enough for them to be convinced that you are mentally well and ready to be discharged, and then after that you won't have to have that worry in the back of your mind that they might be looking for you..

I wish you lots of luck for next time though.. Stay cool

 

[ladolcemorte]

Mmm, looks good and your last supper should just be whatever you like, whatever you fancy and enjoy. For me, I would probably either go for sushi or maybe some nice burgers/comfort food. Speaking of that, I may have the "last supper" near my CTB time (if I do end up going about CTB'ing), but immediately before it as it may interfere with my resolve or so, but that's just me. Ultimately, only you know how much time you want in between the last supper and the moment in which you decide to attempt CTB.

Good point. I am Jumping so I don't want to do that on a full stomach! I ultimately decided that today will not be the day, as I was worried they might send the police if I didn't get back to the hospital in time. I'm flying to an iconic location, where I was interrupted before, so it won't take a brain surgeon to find me. I came back to the hospital and I will just stay here until they discharge me. Then I will go and have my last meal here in this city, and then fly to the city where m bridge is. 5hat will give plenty of time for the food to settle before I jump. I'm so angry at having been pulled off the bridge before. I should be dead already. It took a lot of guts to climb over that railing and I'm so angry that I have to summon all of that courage again.

 

[JoeFailure]

What's interesting is sometimes it has been delicious food that keeps me from CTB. Like I almost don't want to do it sometimes because I still want chips or a cheeseburger or pizza again. So strange because when I was first suicidal, nothing had taste or anything anymore and I barely ate for a couple of months. But now that I'm more at peace with the idea that I'll likely have to do it at some point...it's all kind of returned and I really appreciate food again.

I hope some kind of miracle happens for you at the last second so you don't feel like you have to do this, but if not, at least eat up and enjoy it!

 

[TAW122]

@JoeFailure Yeah so that is why if I wanted to have my last supper/last meal, I am going to do it not too close to my actual CTB date (if I have set a date), but allow myself enough time in between, acting as a buffer, then the last days will just pushing towards CTB and mustering my courage as well as overriding SI.

 

[Liveandlearnagain]

Damn, I never thought of a last meal. Didn't really think it mattered. Now you're making me sentimental.

 

[ladolcemorte]

Damn, I never thought of a last meal. Didn't really think it mattered. Now you're making me sentimental.

Food matters A LOT to me!

 

[bigj75]

Food matters A LOT to me!

Hell yae bro.