Those were tge exact words i told my shrink after seeing dozens of them. I told him your exact words, told him I have sn and this was the last chance I would give myself after 11 suicide attempts all failed obviously. The look on his face was priceless, I told him, I don't believe in you and your medicine. He replied, have you Realised the pressure you putting on me? He said I'm not gonna be like other doctors and by the long list of meds you showed me I appologise on their behalf cause you didn't neee any of these. Are you open to try only 3 meds and see how you feel? I said yes but inside was like here we go again. Short story, he saved my life. The meds work perfectly, I love him so much I take all the admin and my doctor cakes, cup cakes, a valentine day cupcake to each one. And said, I know this is anti ethic, but now im not me, not The patient just a regular girl. Try and look for help, I haven't felt suicidal I'm 2 years, ss also helped me a lot. Don't give up without giving what you have a hell of a fight first. I dunno what you have in my case PTSD,depression, anxiety and imsomnia. I hope you look for a good doctor like me. And wish u are able to stand up. I still have my bad days, but they are less. Much less. A big hug, and sorry for the long post. But will always be pro choice.