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- Oct 19, 2022
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I've had a rough life. I've been seriously considering ctb within the last year (although I've flirted with it for most of my life). It feels like my life has gotten to the point where more years will not matter. I don't care if anything positive will happen, I don't care to see it.
Despite years of suicidal thoughts and desires to ctb, this year I'm finally moving towards serious planning, I want to buy SN and the other meds I need for the protocol. My problem is, no one around me understands. I keep getting the stupid pro-life arguments and I'm shut down when I talk about methods, no one will acknowledge that I'm in enough pain to legitimately do it. Which I guess is ideal because they won't try to stop me. I just have to ignore their pro-life statements in the meantime. Hence why I, like many other people, find solace here
Despite years of suicidal thoughts and desires to ctb, this year I'm finally moving towards serious planning, I want to buy SN and the other meds I need for the protocol. My problem is, no one around me understands. I keep getting the stupid pro-life arguments and I'm shut down when I talk about methods, no one will acknowledge that I'm in enough pain to legitimately do it. Which I guess is ideal because they won't try to stop me. I just have to ignore their pro-life statements in the meantime. Hence why I, like many other people, find solace here