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Journeytoletgo
Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
- May 14, 2018
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I'm a compilation of complex traumas so I don't have the energy nor will to pursue the good anymore. The skills I would need are social skills, some hobbies I like and wish I did before age 25 in my teens would have been various dance forms such as belly dance, hip hop, pole dancing. Honestly I think it's too late for me. Hbu?I can relate. What skills do you think you need to learn now? What is your motivation for finding your authentic self? Do you have ideas of how to find community or groups that can teach you or help you develop into the person you can become?
wish I did before age 25 in my teens would have been dance forms such as belly dance, hip hop, pole dancing. Honestly I think it's too late for me. Hbu?
I can relate. What skills do you think you need to learn now? What is your motivation for finding your authentic self? Do you have ideas of how to find community or groups that can teach you or help you develop into the person you can become?
Well I'm 32 going on 33. For me it's a little more that I figured out enough to get by before the anxiety forced me into isolation. The social skills I really needed though were how to cope with trauma from childhood abuse and later sexual abuse. If you're dealing with CPTSD and trying to learn these things it's difficult to add burdens to a nervous system that is injured and malfunctioning and for that not to have a knock on effect on neurodivervence and overall self esteem. Atm I no longer have the incentive to try but that's complicated to the particular environment and financial constraints and the limitations caused by long Covid. Let go of what you think you should be like and figure out who you truly are.
For example, when I'm not bedridden with depression or overwhelmed with flashbacks I chat with everyone. I go to my park and climb trees. I learn how to make flatbreads and make a mess. I sew and mend clothes. Unfortunately for me it is in solitude but these things should be shared