kittyswift
getting tired even for a phoenix..
- Sep 29, 2023
- 216
I have been hospitalised for past CTB attempts 5 times now. My most recent attempt was a few weeks ago and once i was medically fit i had to be cleared mentally, as im sure a lot of you will know from experience. While trying to come up with a safety/discharge plan, the person i met with said she wasn't sure what to do because the things they usually come up with hasn't worked for me. She said she would have to talk to her consultant, but discharged me anyway without a plan. I had a follow up phone call the next day where she said she would be talking to the consultant psychiatrist later on and would get back to me about some additional 'support'. She hasn't gotten back to me and i have received no further support. Its so frustrating and it just feels like the services that are supposed to 'help' me have forgotten about me, or that (forgive me for how childish this sounds" im not 'bad enough' to deserve any help. im not really sure what to do now, i don't have a contact number for her since they always contact me on no caller ID. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist later this month but he is useless. Any ideas of where i can go from here? Im giving life another try, my attempts must have failed for a reason right? -besides from poor planning and impulsiveness (lol). It just feels like there isnt really anywhere else to go and that my only option is to CTB with my SN that i got a few days ago. Any ideas would be appreciated because i am truly at a loss