KO punch needed

[eternalbliss22]

I keep getting pushed close to the edge, but not over. I've been harassed & gaslighted & spied on for years now. I was pushed into a mental breakdown about 5-6 years ago. I've been wronged & I've done wrong. I've tried to correct some of my wronging, but no one else will own up to theirs & make corrections. I've been purposely pushed & baited with the intent to elicit an angry response & if I do get get upset then I'm the one wrong. I can't keep living under these conditions. There are some that wish my death & I yearn for it to. I've had 2 failed attempts & I need the 3rd to be effective, problem is SI. I need to be pushed by those who wish it & pushed hard. I can't have anything positive to occur. I need the proverbial hammer to be dropped harder than ever before. Let this wasted existence to cease to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a really horrible situation to have to be in, it's undeniably so awful how many humans just create so much suffering and make the lives of others much worse. I hope that you are able to find the freedom that you wish for, it really is like the SI exists just to prolong our torment and keep us trapped here.