Kicking the Can

[Ligottian]

How long have delaying, delaying, delaying ctb? For me, it's been at least 20 years.

 

[FuneralCry]

I should have died as soon as possible. Everyday that I have continued to exist is one day too long. There really is no point to staying alive, it's just prolonging suffering. I've known that ctb is the best thing for me since I was much younger, but of course dying is so difficult. I have never wanted to exist in a world that is as cruel as this.

 

[GhostNote]

3 years. My medical condition did actually get better for a brief period. But then a seemingly innocuous noise exposure made my pain hyperacusis worse and things began to spiral from their. So far it's been 7 months in the worst condition since all of this started. Isolation and pain. Still can't successfully end it though.

 

[theboy]

Lately I've been putting it off because I lack courage but I should have died at 16

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I've been suicidal to some degree every day for over 10 years. I guess I should've gone when the feelings first took root.