Keep Failing SI Need Help, Please

[t0rch]

I'm trying to hang myself with partial, but I just keep failing either I can't get myself to faint or SI kicks in last moment.

The next and likely last method to try is jumping, but I can't finding any accessible high building near me.

I feel more despairing than ever. Please help. Please.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting to be free from the suffering, it feels so cruel to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I wish there's the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer again. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[NegevChina]

I'm trying to hang myself with partial, but I just keep failing either I can't get myself to faint or SI kicks in last moment.

The next and likely last method to try is jumping, but I can't finding any accessible high building near me.

I feel more despairing than ever. Please help. Please.

I've considered train in the past but understand SI will be near impossible to overcome. Am currently considering jumping as plan B since I only have access to 9th floor but I think I can overcome SI. I'll take a few benzos to calm down and just roll over the edge of the building. My plan A is CO2 bag but it is probably to painful and takes around 10 seconds to pass out.

 

[VoidBlessed]

I've considered train in the past but understand SI will be near impossible to overcome. Am currently considering jumping as plan B since I only have access to 9th floor but I think I can overcome SI. I'll take a few benzos to calm down and just roll over the edge of the building. My plan A is CO2 bag but it is probably to painful and takes around 10 seconds to pass out.

In my experience benzos don't do anything. I took a handful before attempting and felt absolutely nothing from them - the fear and anticipation were just so strong.