Discussion Kanye’s twitter

[lastch]

I just want to preface this post by saying that what Ye is posting is horrible and extremely offensive.

However, I unfortunately can relate to it. Reading through his posts triggered my PTSD of an episode I had which ruined my whole life. A few months ago, I was in a psychosis/manic episode (still unclear to me due to conflicting medical opinions) and was posting mad shit on a private story on Snapchat. Whilst I didn't post anything offensive or racist, it was clear to everyone that was watching that I wasn't well mentally. I should also mention at this time I was in a psych ward and posting pictures and videos depicting my mental decline.

When reading through Ye's posts, I couldn't help but feel how the viewers of my private story felt: utter disbelief and awe of another persons mental breakdown. This is not something many humans have witnessed especially when it is documented on something so public like X, or unfortunately in my situation Snapchat. My mother's "what the fuck" when reading it is what I imagine others said when viewing my posts. I also put the text in my posts in all caps which is another similarity. My thoughts also wonder if my old friends are viewing his mental breakdown and they think of me.

In my case, it's been 8 months since my episode and everything very quickly went to shit afterward. I lost all of my friends, am too embarrassed to see family members, lost my two jobs and had to drop out of college. I've spent everyday of those 8 months not leaving the house (occasionally leaving to go to appointments twice a week), having little to no social interaction (even on social media as I deleted all my accounts after it) and just replaying everything bad that's happened as a result of my mental health everyday since.

Again I want to point out that Ye's posts are extremely offensive, racist, homophobic and anti-semitic. However, as someone who was in his position and is still reaping the punishments of it, I would like to point out that he is not well. I try to remind myself that what happened to me was not my fault, and I was not in control. A lot of my memory is blank so I sometimes don't even remember the things I said or did when I was in that mental state. I am in no way making excuses for his behaviour, but I am giving a real life example of it. In my situation, I wish the nurses or my family had've taken my phone off me and for his sake, I hope he has people around him who are trying to help him. I say this because when it all blows over and he comes to his senses, he'll be left with the mess he made, everyone knowing how precarious his mental state is and feeling hopeless and end up on this site (I'm talking about myself :( )

 

[always_sad]

This is not your fault. It's so crazy I thought people are not allowed to use phones in spych wards specifically for reasons like this???

 

[Rabscuttle]

I agree with you it's depressing. I said to a friend earlier, is there no one in his life to keep him off social media? This is very clearly a person in the midst of a psychotic break/mental breakdown.

What he said is very very disgusting, there's no excuse for it. I say that as a staunch socialist opposed to all the BS he spouted. But to see someone struggling so openly, it's just sad. Especially someone whose art has touched millions of people in the not so distant past. Hell runaway still makes me tear up.

Idk, I'm not on social media enough to truly gauge the reaction. But I imagine it's more fuck this Nazi, rather than this broken person seriously needs help, and unfortunately will likely never get it.

Thanks for sharing your story.

 

[sammiechzxv]

While I understand and empathize with your side... he also only acts like this before he drops something (music, merchandise) so (to a degree at least) I'm pretty sure he also acts out for publicity

 

[yellowjester]

I said to a friend earlier, is there no one in his life to keep him off social media? This is very clearly a person in the midst of a psychotic break/mental breakdown.

I think he pushed all the sane people who could stand up to him out of his life. He believes 'jewish' doctors who put him on medication are to blame for his decline in creativity. There's no helping him at this point.

 

[Winterreise]

StopAntisemitism is an alarmist watchdog organisation whos goal is to stir up rage amongst the population by exagerating the antisemitism, calling for citizens to report on their neighrbours, individual people , digging up old dirt , mishaps among ordrinary citizens.
They have what appear to be a hotline , extensive reporting system.

Their intent is to attack, dox , destroy individual people. This extreme bravado and overly obnoxious bully tactics , is not only a public shit show.
Its counterproductive. Its polarizing.

In the context of their own ridiculous and obvious selfcontradicting behavoir, of not living up to their own standards , mixed with sentimental patriotism, and the uncompromising and unforgiving nature of their methods - can only serve to exacerbate and destablize any attempt of serious discussion.
Instead they cause extreme antipathy and tension. Thus Kanyes behavour.