trying ungracefully
Student
- Jun 11, 2025
- 146
I think Kanye doesn't deserve complete forgiveness for the things he has done but I do think he deserves understanding. Understanding that Bipolar can change you into someone you never imagined and that will give you shame for the rest of your life. It doesn't mean these actions and opinions were okay it just means that he has a disorder that effects how he acts at times. He was not properly medicated and that is because it is a thing with bipolar people to think you are fine, that every one else is just against you and that you are the one with the higher thinking.
It makes me upset to see "I am bipolar and would have never done that". Like are they an individual with bipolar or a group of bipolar people? It is a spectrum where I have bipolar 1, my brother bipolar 2, and we aren't the same as each other or the next bipolar person we see. My therapist told me about her friend who was found states away and homeless while with me I was not wanting to be home anymore but I always came back because I knew I had to be safe in that way.
He did horrible things and he is not excused from it but you can't say that just because you would have never done it, it means that secretly that is who he is as a person. I believed the Chinese were after me and watching me, that was racist, but did I believe that when I was fine? No. I don't have any opinions of the Chinese just like I was before.
I also see it as, these people with bipolar who are saying this view themselves as their disorder, it is just who they are. They can't make the separation that bipolar effects your actions and who you are as a result of your actions. I will be honest, I slapped my boyfriend while in manic psychosis and I have no memory of that. It doesn't mean that I am an abusive person, my boyfriend and I can separate that I did it and it really effected him but that "wasn't me". Idk a better way to word it, I know it was me but my brain was being effected and I had horrifying delusions about my boyfriend that resulted in that violence.
You have to take accountability as someone with bipolar and your actions can effect people to the point they don't want to associate with you. But it doesn't mean that's who you are as a person. Mania distorts the world around you and it is like you are on a different planet while needing to be on this planet. So many things can become triggers into delusions too. Psychosis that comes from not sleeping for days is even worse and not a thing is clear anymore.
I just wish people would stop comparing their bipolar to his, especially when they have bipolar 2, that is way different.
Mentally illness is far from being understood on the larger level even with people who have mental illness. They are closed minded in their own way and don't want to open up their world because it would be too hard to see nuances in situations. Someone can do bad things but also be good in other ways. Someone can't just be one thing because humans are complex and don't fit a perfect mold of what you imagine.
It makes me upset to see "I am bipolar and would have never done that". Like are they an individual with bipolar or a group of bipolar people? It is a spectrum where I have bipolar 1, my brother bipolar 2, and we aren't the same as each other or the next bipolar person we see. My therapist told me about her friend who was found states away and homeless while with me I was not wanting to be home anymore but I always came back because I knew I had to be safe in that way.
He did horrible things and he is not excused from it but you can't say that just because you would have never done it, it means that secretly that is who he is as a person. I believed the Chinese were after me and watching me, that was racist, but did I believe that when I was fine? No. I don't have any opinions of the Chinese just like I was before.
I also see it as, these people with bipolar who are saying this view themselves as their disorder, it is just who they are. They can't make the separation that bipolar effects your actions and who you are as a result of your actions. I will be honest, I slapped my boyfriend while in manic psychosis and I have no memory of that. It doesn't mean that I am an abusive person, my boyfriend and I can separate that I did it and it really effected him but that "wasn't me". Idk a better way to word it, I know it was me but my brain was being effected and I had horrifying delusions about my boyfriend that resulted in that violence.
You have to take accountability as someone with bipolar and your actions can effect people to the point they don't want to associate with you. But it doesn't mean that's who you are as a person. Mania distorts the world around you and it is like you are on a different planet while needing to be on this planet. So many things can become triggers into delusions too. Psychosis that comes from not sleeping for days is even worse and not a thing is clear anymore.
I just wish people would stop comparing their bipolar to his, especially when they have bipolar 2, that is way different.
Mentally illness is far from being understood on the larger level even with people who have mental illness. They are closed minded in their own way and don't want to open up their world because it would be too hard to see nuances in situations. Someone can do bad things but also be good in other ways. Someone can't just be one thing because humans are complex and don't fit a perfect mold of what you imagine.
