Just want to share

[peace0]

So I was just browsing yt and I found this song



And I want to share it with u all, I just discovered it yesterday but now it is something very close to me
This song perfectly sums up everything why I want to die so bad, I have even tried to change myself in the hope just maybe, maybe i can be better, but it feels like all is a hoax, I understand that past 17 years of my life I didnt knew I was suffering, but now even when I know and am trying to "heal" for last 2 years, why does it never get better, from then nothing has changed but the fact that I'm now comfortable acknowledging that I am suffering,
sry it turned into a vent,

But yeah this was just to share this song with u all, it just strikes every key points, after listening to this song I just think about my family but its just so hard to live with all this pain that no one understands,
idk when I will have the courage to actually do it.

Idk can I even post this here (sharing a song), cuz this is about suicide discussion but the song is about suicide idk, tell me if this doesn't belong here I'll remove it

 

[jaxxon_sunn]

I remember listening to that song at 16 and crying alone relating to it so much. Now, 5 years later, I relate even deeper than ever before. I can never get out of this rut and will most likely not make it another 5. The song is so sad and makes me think about what my family would think. It does make me want to recover, but is it even possible. I wish people didn't have to suffer in this world so terribly.

 

[sannoji]

yeah, i remember listening to this nightcored years ago. it's always made me feel a lot of things, very mixed feelings. sometimes it's kept me going if only with the idea my family would be upset, other times it's pushed me deeper into ideation. really good song in general though