WorthlessTrash
Worthless
- Apr 19, 2022
- 2,407
As much as I want to CTB right now, I am extremely torn.
On one hand, I don't want to cause distress for my family.
On the other hand, I cannot live with this dysphoria and agonizing envy towards the opposite sex.
I can't even try to last another year because none of my hobbies interest me, I am 400 lbs with no motivation to take care of my body (I hate it because it is the male anatomy) and I am financially dependent on my mother in my 30s. I also have no sexual or romantic desire anymore so there's really nothing to work for.
I am simply just existing......
I am torn and don't know what to do. Deep down inside, I know CTB is the solution, but I am stuck in limbo.
On one hand, I don't want to cause distress for my family.
On the other hand, I cannot live with this dysphoria and agonizing envy towards the opposite sex.
I can't even try to last another year because none of my hobbies interest me, I am 400 lbs with no motivation to take care of my body (I hate it because it is the male anatomy) and I am financially dependent on my mother in my 30s. I also have no sexual or romantic desire anymore so there's really nothing to work for.
I am simply just existing......
I am torn and don't know what to do. Deep down inside, I know CTB is the solution, but I am stuck in limbo.