Venting Just thoughts

[kapa]

It's always there. In good and bad the feeling I'm not worthy of living it's always there. Maybe I got it from my mother who constantly reminded me I ruined her life. Who regrets having me. Maybe I'm just broken. I feel like a burden, but here I am to afraid to ctb. I feel like alien, like a nobody, like I don't belong anywhere. Through the years I had hope in me left now I push away relationships with people because I just don't want to be here. I can't even enjoy the good things anymore.

 

[somewhatdeadly]

your worthy of living just by being alive right now but is life in general worth living? idrk

 

[seppuku404]

I feel you. the things that distracted us and made us a little happy don't feel good anymore. that feeling of deeply loneliness and worthlessness remains there even on supposed happy moments. As you said even in relationships that feeling of being worthless prevails. I wish I could ctb too

 

[kapa]

your worthy of living just by being alive right now but is life in general worth living? idrk

This is the question keeping me awake at night

I feel you. the things that distracted us and made us a little happy don't feel good anymore. that feeling of deeply loneliness and worthlessness remains there even on supposed happy moments. As you said even in relationships that feeling of being worthless prevails. I wish I could ctb too

I wish it was easy just fall asleep and never wake up and just disappear