My psyche is flip flopping. I am going from being determined to kill myself within the next 6 months to outgoing, funny, charismatic and on the outside happy.
Bipolar is such a strong illness. It is insane how powerful this illness is. It is a living torture chamber if you have a severe form like me.
I am currently hypomanic. But I have insane mood swings.
I met a college friend. Maybe I am sensitive but today and in the past he talked shit about mental illness. His reaction to my suicidality was a complete and utter joke. He called me on the phone to debate suicide when I just gave him the information that I am suicidal.
We avoided the topic mental illness mostly. But the times he talked about it made my blood boil.
Yeah he knows depression from his time as a teenager. (as if) He got rid of his depression by playing video games. And he always assumed that my depression was caused by the weather.
I hate it when people are that toxic. He does not know dick what is going on inside of me. He asked me how I felt and I told him I am quite depressed. He told me he is really surprised by that. On the outside I seem to be so different.
I have mostly male friends but I never experienced women being toxic about it. However, I barely knew women. But I had very privileged friends he told me they know how I feel and what is going on inside of me. Well these people did not last long as my friends. I also have good friends who are not that presumptuous. But I tend to get rid of friends who talk shit about mental illness. However, I want that my college friends stays my friend. He is a good person but in this instance not empathetic at all.
Bipolar is such a strong illness. It is insane how powerful this illness is. It is a living torture chamber if you have a severe form like me.
I am currently hypomanic. But I have insane mood swings.
I met a college friend. Maybe I am sensitive but today and in the past he talked shit about mental illness. His reaction to my suicidality was a complete and utter joke. He called me on the phone to debate suicide when I just gave him the information that I am suicidal.
We avoided the topic mental illness mostly. But the times he talked about it made my blood boil.
Yeah he knows depression from his time as a teenager. (as if) He got rid of his depression by playing video games. And he always assumed that my depression was caused by the weather.
I hate it when people are that toxic. He does not know dick what is going on inside of me. He asked me how I felt and I told him I am quite depressed. He told me he is really surprised by that. On the outside I seem to be so different.
I have mostly male friends but I never experienced women being toxic about it. However, I barely knew women. But I had very privileged friends he told me they know how I feel and what is going on inside of me. Well these people did not last long as my friends. I also have good friends who are not that presumptuous. But I tend to get rid of friends who talk shit about mental illness. However, I want that my college friends stays my friend. He is a good person but in this instance not empathetic at all.
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