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blackjack711
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- Sep 8, 2024
- 30
I've been so immensely disappointed lately, everything is just so bleak and I don't know what to do about it. Everyone tells me I've got a good life, maybe they're right. I don't starve, I've got a house, my mom and grandma love me. But every day I wake up crying from the pain in my leg, it's like someone lit a fire on my knee and doused it with salt. I can hardly get out of bed without being drunk or pilled out of my mind and even then it only dulls the pain, it never gets rid of it. I feel like no one wants to listen to my issues, sure I've got material possessions but what's the use when they bring me no joy? What's the use in trying to live when I can hardly walk? I'll never be able to run, work out, play basketball. Everything just feels so bleak all the time and for what? I used to believe in the gods, that they'd help me, that they loved me. But now I know the truth, the gods are dead or gone, the loving gods I knew of wouldn't allow this to happen to me or anyone else. I'm sorry for rambling, I always get like this when I'm drunk