Venting Just some thoughts of mine

[blackjack711]

I've been so immensely disappointed lately, everything is just so bleak and I don't know what to do about it. Everyone tells me I've got a good life, maybe they're right. I don't starve, I've got a house, my mom and grandma love me. But every day I wake up crying from the pain in my leg, it's like someone lit a fire on my knee and doused it with salt. I can hardly get out of bed without being drunk or pilled out of my mind and even then it only dulls the pain, it never gets rid of it. I feel like no one wants to listen to my issues, sure I've got material possessions but what's the use when they bring me no joy? What's the use in trying to live when I can hardly walk? I'll never be able to run, work out, play basketball. Everything just feels so bleak all the time and for what? I used to believe in the gods, that they'd help me, that they loved me. But now I know the truth, the gods are dead or gone, the loving gods I knew of wouldn't allow this to happen to me or anyone else. I'm sorry for rambling, I always get like this when I'm drunk

 

[SVEN]

With two shot knees and now a flare up of sciatica, I really get where you're at. Sorry for your situation, hope the hangover won't be too bad when it comes.

 

[blackjack711]

With two shot knees and now a flare up of sciatica, I really get where you're at. Sorry for your situation, hope the hangover won't be too bad when it comes.

You don't know how much those words helped me, thank you for taking the time to say them

 

[SVEN]

I used to live in the gymn, wrestle, train in Aikido & Ju Jitsu ... now I've got elbow crutches & codeine. Plus a partner with serious health issues I've got to help.
But, this too will pass. Hang in there unmet friend.

 

[blackjack711]

I used to live in the gymn, wrestle, train in Aikido & Ju Jitsu ... now I've got elbow crutches & codeine. Plus a partner with serious health issues I've got to help.
But, this too will pass. Hang in there unmet friend.

I'm hoping you're right friend. Just remember one day at a time, just for today. You don't have to spring back immediately, you can feel horrid, but just for today. Tomorrow is a new day and you have to seize the opportunity even if that means just getting the laundry done

 

[divinemistress87]

Nerve pain is so hard and painful to deal with. I spent 4 years bedbound cause of it. Craniosacral therapy helped a lot with it

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand finding it dreadful to suffer in this existence, it's so cruel to me how there's all this pain in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.