Just plain old tired

[RockyRockman]

I am just plain tired of it all and I find it agonizing to continue living. I have made many changes in my life and made consistant effort to better my situation. I exercise regularly and am in great physicked condition, I have many projects that I am working on, I have friends that I talk to regularly and a good job. Yet, it would seem that none of this matter for every time I think things are looking up even the most minor trigger can lead a spiral into to suicidal depression. I have attempted divide before and seriously consider it often. I am just plain old tired of giving it my all only to end up standing on the edge of a bridge looming down into the turbulent icy waters bellow or trying to find a place suitable to hang myself. I just don't know if I can do it for much longer.

 

[mortuarymary]

Welcome to the forums.
Read and educate yourself and ask questions.
you seem very lost.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to the forum :-)

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound tiring what you are going through and I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering in this existence but anyway best wishes.