voidliquid
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- Jun 14, 2020
- 21
Hey there, I hope that when you come across my thread that your day is going okay.
[Let me preface this by saying that I have BPD & Bipolar, I've wanted to die since the age of 7 and that feeling has never gone away]
I had an appointment with my Mental Health Nurse today (Monday), and I left the appointment feeling like I never want to tell anyone how I truly feel ever again.
The nurse is aware I was sectioned before, and is aware that I have a fear of going back into hospital, as I was worse in there than I was at home.
Told her my usual stuff, self harm bla bla bla, she asked me like she always does "do I have any plans to end my life" - and I told her "yes, this week, I've got everything in order".
She started going on about having the home team come see me and assess me if I need to go into hospital - not the thing that someone on the edge wants to hear.
I'm now afraid that the men in white coats are coming to get me any second now.
Yes, she was just doing her job - but my point is; people who work in mental health always say "talk to someone" when you finally do, the answer is lock 'em up and medicate them ... yes because that really helped me before.
Thanks for letting me rant, take care xoxo
[Let me preface this by saying that I have BPD & Bipolar, I've wanted to die since the age of 7 and that feeling has never gone away]
I had an appointment with my Mental Health Nurse today (Monday), and I left the appointment feeling like I never want to tell anyone how I truly feel ever again.
The nurse is aware I was sectioned before, and is aware that I have a fear of going back into hospital, as I was worse in there than I was at home.
Told her my usual stuff, self harm bla bla bla, she asked me like she always does "do I have any plans to end my life" - and I told her "yes, this week, I've got everything in order".
She started going on about having the home team come see me and assess me if I need to go into hospital - not the thing that someone on the edge wants to hear.
I'm now afraid that the men in white coats are coming to get me any second now.
Yes, she was just doing her job - but my point is; people who work in mental health always say "talk to someone" when you finally do, the answer is lock 'em up and medicate them ... yes because that really helped me before.
Thanks for letting me rant, take care xoxo