Im so tired of pretending that I am someone im not. I go to work everyday with a fake smile and persona. And playing that I am someone normal. But somedays it's so bad that I just can't. I have been pulled aside by my boss to ask what's going on multible times. So im sure that he knows that there is something. My co-workers probably also does. But still i fake everything. I try not to talk about myself but if someone asks about me i'll just make something up.
And im so tired of being treated like i dont have emotions too. when I have pulled myself though a day of work. I'll get online and play with people that I used to call friends. But idk what they are anymore. They used to be pretty chill to game with. but with time it's like they dont want me in the group anymore. Im the butt of every joke and when we game i can't say anything without getting absolutly trash talked and I knoe it's common for friends to talk shit. But it just keeps getting more personal. It feels like it's a competition about who can insult me the best.
I voiced my opinion once about it. But just got even more insults because i diden't find it funny. and that it's only for fun but im the only one that get's insulted like this in the group so it dont really feel like a joke.
But im so fucking tired of my lonliness i spend last years Christmas and new years alone and I will this year too even on my 20 and 21 birthday i was alone but i really hate the lonliness that december brings
Sorry for my grammar im not native english..
And im so tired of being treated like i dont have emotions too. when I have pulled myself though a day of work. I'll get online and play with people that I used to call friends. But idk what they are anymore. They used to be pretty chill to game with. but with time it's like they dont want me in the group anymore. Im the butt of every joke and when we game i can't say anything without getting absolutly trash talked and I knoe it's common for friends to talk shit. But it just keeps getting more personal. It feels like it's a competition about who can insult me the best.
I voiced my opinion once about it. But just got even more insults because i diden't find it funny. and that it's only for fun but im the only one that get's insulted like this in the group so it dont really feel like a joke.
But im so fucking tired of my lonliness i spend last years Christmas and new years alone and I will this year too even on my 20 and 21 birthday i was alone but i really hate the lonliness that december brings
Sorry for my grammar im not native english..
