butterfly3
Student
- Apr 2, 2022
- 119
this is gonna be a bit of a vent post.
so i've been really trying to make friends. although I'm an introvert and find social interactions very difficult, especially initially when you aren't quite yet proper friends, ive still been trying my best to be talkative and likeable. i've made a group of like 4 friends, all girls and the first night was so fun, we went to the pub and it was just a generally good time, but now it seems like they're all closer with each other and I'm just a nuisance.
every time I try to integrate myself with them it seems like I'm always doing the effort and they'll be like "you can come if you want" type response.
it seems like when I'm around I just make it awkward. I knocked on one of the girls doors to hang out and she clearly did not want me there, but as I was going to the toilet, I saw her knock on the other girls door.
even other people, it just seems like we say hi, exchange names and that's it.
I really wanted this time to be different. i'm trying to recover from my depression and loneliness, but it seems like it will never end at this point, it all just seems so useless.
I have no friends or companion and nobody seems to like me and I have no clue why, I'm trying my hardest to be friendly and social. not only that, but I just know that once my course starts it's gonna be so hellish.
so i've been really trying to make friends. although I'm an introvert and find social interactions very difficult, especially initially when you aren't quite yet proper friends, ive still been trying my best to be talkative and likeable. i've made a group of like 4 friends, all girls and the first night was so fun, we went to the pub and it was just a generally good time, but now it seems like they're all closer with each other and I'm just a nuisance.
every time I try to integrate myself with them it seems like I'm always doing the effort and they'll be like "you can come if you want" type response.
it seems like when I'm around I just make it awkward. I knocked on one of the girls doors to hang out and she clearly did not want me there, but as I was going to the toilet, I saw her knock on the other girls door.
even other people, it just seems like we say hi, exchange names and that's it.
I really wanted this time to be different. i'm trying to recover from my depression and loneliness, but it seems like it will never end at this point, it all just seems so useless.
I have no friends or companion and nobody seems to like me and I have no clue why, I'm trying my hardest to be friendly and social. not only that, but I just know that once my course starts it's gonna be so hellish.