Just miserable

[downndone2]

All the memories of what I fucked up and threw away. Going from everything to feeling I'm a worthless piece of shit. Almost feel like karma is eating me alive. This anxiety make me want to die everyday, yet the si won't let me go thru with it. I want my heart to stop in my sleep

 

[SilentSadness]

I feel the exact same way, life is too meaningless and painful, yet ctb is too difficult. I desire death every day.

 

[Already Gone now]

I understand these feelings quite well... I wish that I had words to comfort or help you get past what you're feeling. It's like a given that life can suck really bad at times and I think that is the only reason I haven't ctb yet, I need a solid reason to go, because "MAYBE"things will improve? I'd like to think I'm not beyond redemption for the fucked up things I've done in life. I'm paying for the deeds I've said and done in a manner of self harming and suicidal thoughts. To feel the suffering I've brought upon others and the pain I have caused.

 

[Huntfish34]

I feel much the same way, I fckn hate it. Thoughts and prayers to you-

 

[Lok1_/./]

I feel you, it's a hard position to be in, being so hopeless and just nowhere to go really.

 

[downndone2]

I'm sorry you guys are going thru this. I literally pray to not wake up. I am so miserable and feel sick with anxiety every day. Work makes me riddled with anxiety as well. I'm also unable to get much adequate rest due to nightmares and itching

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish to just pass away in my sleep, the thought of such a thing is so incredibly ideal to me as in death everything is forgotten about and there is no more suffering. There is nothing more ideal than being completely unaware of this hellish world, I hate how it's so difficult for us to finally die.