Draconian Alone
Member
- Jul 20, 2024
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My mom was driving me and I was in shotgun when some guy cut us off. My mom was really mad at him.
And then I just flipped him off.
I wish I could describe my inner monologue that led up to it. But there were no thoughts. Just the action.
I'm a very docile, weak, and cowardly person. This is only the second time this has happened.
I felt okay for the first two seconds after it happened. Then my mom got mad and said that that dude could've had a gun. And if I'd did I again I couldn't be in the car with her.
She wants what's best for me I guess. But that involves me being a docile weakling like her. I'd rather be a wolf amongst sheep than a sheep amongst wolves. I need to hide this part of myself to keep life bearable but I can't starve it or I'll lose one of my only defenses. I don't know how to nurture it secretly so I have a fallback plan in case a situation gets ugly.
I don't even know what to ask you guys I guess I just want to be heard. But yeah if you guys have any thought I'm all ears. Or all eyes I guess.
And then I just flipped him off.
I wish I could describe my inner monologue that led up to it. But there were no thoughts. Just the action.
I'm a very docile, weak, and cowardly person. This is only the second time this has happened.
I felt okay for the first two seconds after it happened. Then my mom got mad and said that that dude could've had a gun. And if I'd did I again I couldn't be in the car with her.
She wants what's best for me I guess. But that involves me being a docile weakling like her. I'd rather be a wolf amongst sheep than a sheep amongst wolves. I need to hide this part of myself to keep life bearable but I can't starve it or I'll lose one of my only defenses. I don't know how to nurture it secretly so I have a fallback plan in case a situation gets ugly.
I don't even know what to ask you guys I guess I just want to be heard. But yeah if you guys have any thought I'm all ears. Or all eyes I guess.