ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,561
I've been struggling for months now with my lack of interest in everything, the things your average person finds meaningful (travelling, relationships, family, kids, career advancements, hobbies, etc.) I could care less about, there's nothing that interests me in life anymore.
I have tried my best to change this by trying out different hobbies and putting myself out there more, but if anything, this has only made things worse.
With each working week I feel myself getting closer and closer to ctb, my will to live is gone, pretty much the meaningful thing I do is work and even then I wouldn't consider that meaningful because im only doing it so I don't end up on the streets.
I wish I could wipe my memory and start over again, i can't unsee the world for how mundane it is and it's slowly tearing me apart.
I have tried my best to change this by trying out different hobbies and putting myself out there more, but if anything, this has only made things worse.
With each working week I feel myself getting closer and closer to ctb, my will to live is gone, pretty much the meaningful thing I do is work and even then I wouldn't consider that meaningful because im only doing it so I don't end up on the streets.
I wish I could wipe my memory and start over again, i can't unsee the world for how mundane it is and it's slowly tearing me apart.