Venting just binged i want to cry

[slitwristsbleedcold]

I was maintaining so well, 800 cals a day, around that, sometimes less, for the past week very smoothly, but idk
today's been extra hard at work i guess, i couldn't stop

and STILL can't stop eating, I'm such a fat pig, ong i need to kill myself, 1700 cals today, what the fuck man, i want to cry so much i can't even purge because im too exhausted

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I'm not good at talking about these issues but me and my plushies are sending hugs

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

1700 calories a day is very little and 800 is definitely not enough. I wouldn't worry about it ^_^

 

[dangerstars]

sending love.

1700 is a normal amount, i actually think that's too little. you need that, your body needs that, you are so much healthier eating a normal amount. you should not feel shame, you're wonderful no matter what i hope u can find peace with your eating and your body. i've been there, it's awful.

 

[Flubber]

@slitwristsbleedcold If you're limiting yourself to 800 calories a day, you're likely gonna end up feeling rather agitated a lot of the time. Starving your body like this could affect your brain function capacity, serotonin levels, gut biome, deplete your blood sugar and leave you feeling dizzy, weak, ravenous... and continuously miserable. Not to mention losing muscle mass. More muscles = greater fat metabolization.

Only 800 cals daily will likely make you want to binge - especially on sugary or fatty foods. Instant fix followed by a shit ton of guilt.

Is there any way you could meet somewhere between your suggested weight's minimal daily calorie intake and an 800 Kcal intake?

You probably know all of the above though.... and more. SIgh

 

[Dejected 55]

800 is not nearly enough. Not only will you feel like you are starving (because you are) your body will naturally start to hoard food... so you not only will not lose as much as you think, you won't have the energy to burn calories off and lose any excess weight you might have that you want to lose, and your body will start to conserve energy too and your metabolism will slow.

1500-2000 is "normal" for most folks with moderate activity to maintain whatever weight they are currently at. You might fluctuate 5 lbs either way from day to day and could fluctuate 10 lbs in a given week. Also remember that muscle weighs more than fat, so if you are exercising and burning fat, you might find your weight doesn't drop or increases slightly due to swapping muscle for fat... but you also have to eat food to build that muscle.... and more muscle makes your body burn more calories even at moderate activity... so you want to eat enough food to sustain your body and build some muscle along the way.

 

[houseofleaves]

Please don't starve yourself. Please don't purge. You're not a fat pig. I'm failing to word this properly, but basically, when I had an ED, my thoughts were filled with same thinking patterns and i kinda know how awful this feels. You do not deserve to suffer like this. Please dont be so hard on yourself

 

[littlecutecorpse]

sending hugs!! trust me when i say 1700 is a perfectly normal amount to eat (2000 is generally the daily limit as others have said before. 800 in comparison seems too little). i can't say much else for your situation since i've hardly dealt with these issues before, but i hope you can find peace someday. best wishes <3

 

[heroingirl]

1700 is a normal amount of food. i know it feels overwhelming, ive been there many times, but its almost impossible for you to gain off of that amount, and if that does happen to be above your maintenance, its nowhere near enough to even gain a single pound. it'll be okay. and as someone who struggles with an ed as well, have you tried restricting a bit less? i know that's hard for a lot of reasons, but i would always binge after about a week of "good" days where i ate under 1k consistently. maybe try to eat at maintenance a couple times a week? if that's too overwhelming, maybe a bit under maintenance, just something to keep your body from the almost "panic eating"

 

[slitwristsbleedcold]

Please don't starve yourself. Please don't purge. You're not a fat pig. I'm failing to word this properly, but basically, when I had an ED, my thoughts were filled with same thinking patterns and i kinda know how awful this feels. You do not deserve to suffer like this. Please dont be so hard on yourself

i wish it was that easy, my mind is completely fried from this, disorder, it's been too long sob, but ty, you're a sweetheart

1700 is a normal amount of food. i know it feels overwhelming, ive been there many times, but its almost impossible for you to gain off of that amount, and if that does happen to be above your maintenance, its nowhere near enough to even gain a single pound. it'll be okay. and as someone who struggles with an ed as well, have you tried restricting a bit less? i know that's hard for a lot of reasons, but i would always binge after about a week of "good" days where i ate under 1k consistently. maybe try to eat at maintenance a couple times a week? if that's too overwhelming, maybe a bit under maintenance, just something to keep your body from the almost "panic eating"

I did try but the moment my weight loss slowed down, or stopped even, i immediately panicked and went back under 1000

i always make sure to eat meals and my calories separately, to not feel weak, or black out, whatever you want to call it : p

it doesn't really happen often to me, to binge, but today it's been particularly hard, i guess that's why i indulged into it, ty for being understanding