MrBlue
Arcanist
- Jul 1, 2020
- 416
Around Aug/Sep time I made the decision to attempt to hold off ctb and try to see how far I could recover. While I wasn't hopeful, I'd recently finally made progress with getting a job offer. On getting one, the support I was getting with the NHS has actually improved, and they've finally allowed me to have CAT therapy. Before my support was simply telling me to get a job over and over (despite all the COVID shit going on).
Unfortunately, my GP's report on my mental health, that was requested as part of pre-employment checks, has a chance to completely ruin my chances of getting the job. It simply describes me as having lifetime MH issues and my "very recent suicide attempt", which was back in May. There is no mention that despite my MH I've been functional enough to achieve a degree, or that MH team has been hammering at me that I need to get a job because it's important in my potential recovery.
My main issue is that I have'nt been able to intergrate with other people, and I can't do that if I'm not allowed to function within it first. I feel like I'm being punished for struggling in the first place. I'm going to attempt to get my GP to word more favourably, but as it is I'll be unlikely to get the job, so my progress and the suppport I get will deteriorate again.
Unfortunately, my GP's report on my mental health, that was requested as part of pre-employment checks, has a chance to completely ruin my chances of getting the job. It simply describes me as having lifetime MH issues and my "very recent suicide attempt", which was back in May. There is no mention that despite my MH I've been functional enough to achieve a degree, or that MH team has been hammering at me that I need to get a job because it's important in my potential recovery.
My main issue is that I have'nt been able to intergrate with other people, and I can't do that if I'm not allowed to function within it first. I feel like I'm being punished for struggling in the first place. I'm going to attempt to get my GP to word more favourably, but as it is I'll be unlikely to get the job, so my progress and the suppport I get will deteriorate again.