suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
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My life is utter shit... Lacking the courage to end it, I still hope for some miracle that can at least help me live a decent life till the end.. But nothing happens. All my plans fail, I feel so helpless. I don't even know what to do anymore.
I spend most of my day lying in bed. I sometimes wonder if my desire to die didn't actually trigger some sickness in me in order to self destruct the organism.... But I won't go to the doctor. I used to be so full of life... Now I can barely move...
Feeling like going insane and feeling apathy seem absolute opposites and yet I feel like they have managed to coexist in my head...
I spend most of my day lying in bed. I sometimes wonder if my desire to die didn't actually trigger some sickness in me in order to self destruct the organism.... But I won't go to the doctor. I used to be so full of life... Now I can barely move...
Feeling like going insane and feeling apathy seem absolute opposites and yet I feel like they have managed to coexist in my head...
