Venting Just another day doing nothing because I’m disabled

[thankyou]

I know what to do but my mind isn't letting me do them. I have the willpower but when I try I faint due to autism. It's not work ethic, my brain glitches out and I black out. I have ADHD sure but the executive dysfunction is too severe for medication and it makes my autism worse. All I need to do is finish this project for a potential job. I won't be finishing it today because my senses aren't cooperating. Just another day doing nothing, stuck. And completely alone. Will I take SN today or next week? Next month? Who knows. I will at some point. This life isn't worth living.

 

[downndone2]

I got a job but I'm afraid my anxiety and depression is going to fuck it up, on top of my executive dysfunction. And then just not being able to socialize normally after so much isolation

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I feel you. I know it can't go on much longer like this.

 

[Danielwc]

I have had various injuries and illnesses throughout my life that have forced me to do nothing for extended periods. The main takeaway from illness is patience. You feel shit, frustrated and restless but you have to just take it. Take it easy and be kind to yourself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing certainly can be so tiring and it really can be so awful feeling trapped in a cycle of endless days. But anyway, best wishes, it's very much understandable wishing to finally be free from all the suffering that this life brings.

 

[tiredangelgirl]

be kind to yourself dude, it sounds like you're really trying your best

 

[epic]

I don't have ADHD but my illness makes it hard to keep focus .
Most people here are NEET . I know how it feels. (Not in employment, education or training https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-many-of-you-are-employed-studying.108699/ )

Have you discussed this situation with your doctor ? Maybe he can prescribe some medicines which will give you that extra push .
PS: Apologies if you already have .

 

[Hotsackage]

me to. severly mentally screwed. all i do is watch youtube and video games