CFLoser
I fcking hate myself
- Dec 5, 2018
- 611
Im not a smart cookie. In fact, in quite a dumb cookie. I have no issue stating this fact, it's okay.
Tonight, I wanted to consume stuff that's "healthy" to... be healthy. In specific I had some milk and 2 egg yolks.
I ate them, and threw up about an hour later.
Luckily, my ultra instinct kicked in so I totally only threw up in the toilet... I really was quick on my feet and toes.
Anyway, I threw up and... I felt a lot better immediately. I feel free-r and my mind is definitely clear. I cleaned up which was easy B) and now I am sitting in bed.
I wanna sleep but I'm scared I'll throw up and die.
To be honest I wanna fucking shoot myself but it's fine because I know someday I will figure things out.
yea things really actually aren't going so well right now... but I feel positive for no good reason. I wanna just sleep for like 30 hours. Tomorrow I think I'll just stay in bed for as long as possible and just ignore the world for a bit, even though I'll fall even further behind on homework it's fine because I need a break.
Anyway, I well... idk this was just a ramble I guess
Tonight, I wanted to consume stuff that's "healthy" to... be healthy. In specific I had some milk and 2 egg yolks.
I ate them, and threw up about an hour later.
Luckily, my ultra instinct kicked in so I totally only threw up in the toilet... I really was quick on my feet and toes.
Anyway, I threw up and... I felt a lot better immediately. I feel free-r and my mind is definitely clear. I cleaned up which was easy B) and now I am sitting in bed.
I wanna sleep but I'm scared I'll throw up and die.
To be honest I wanna fucking shoot myself but it's fine because I know someday I will figure things out.
yea things really actually aren't going so well right now... but I feel positive for no good reason. I wanna just sleep for like 30 hours. Tomorrow I think I'll just stay in bed for as long as possible and just ignore the world for a bit, even though I'll fall even further behind on homework it's fine because I need a break.
Anyway, I well... idk this was just a ramble I guess