Jumping tomorrow, need to get over survival instinct

[Thisgirlwantstosleep]

I think things are so bad for me right now that I might just have the courage to go and do it but I'm not sure. My life is awful and just beyond fixing at this point (I'm ugly, poor, ethnic, live with abusive family members, tried to get my own place but it's a complete shit hole and my mental health is in the toilet and cannot handle any of this right now.)

I don't just don't want to get to my location and then not be able to do it.

I'm planning on jumping from Heathrow Airport carpark in London (where I live), whichever is the highest. Think I'll just look over the edge when I'm there then do a run and jump so that no one has time to stop me. A lot of people have jumped and died from there. Some people jump from terminals too but I don't know if I'll have access? I don't even know what a terminal is just proof that I'm fucking retarded.

That's my plan anyway.

 

[goldenrods]

good luck. we love you

 

[TheEndof]

Godspeed.

 

[enjoy]

if it's not your time, it's not your time. if it is, then so be it. either way, all of us love you. i hope you find peace in whichever decision you end up making.

 

[TAW122]

Good luck and hope you are able to find peace.