Story jumping out of university is my only option

[Voy]

I've been living with chronic health issue and it only keep getting worse, don't think I'll last for more than 10 years. I have social anxiety and lack of life skills(not enough to live on my own) and is living with my mother. Most suicide methods require equipments that I can't hide from family. Even though my country(3rd world) doesn't allow guns, I thought I can join military service and have legal access to firearms, but it's too risky because of the surveillance and I won't know if the rounds is enough for the method. Poisons like N or SN can be easy to hide but they require money(my mother dictate all of my money) and life skills(I don't even know how to buy stuff or travelling around, because of my social anxiety and worsening health). If I continue my education and get a decent job, I can get money and learn some life skills for the poison methods. But I tried to study and my mind is so cloudy recently I can't memorize anything. So I can only jump out of my university, 13 stories is enough I think. Only thing left I have to worry is SI.

 

[siray]

Think it through, SI will hold you back when you are at the rooftop. 13 stories may sound high enough but it isn't 100% lethal.
Have you considered hanging? With some alcohol, it should be doable.

 

[Voy]

Think it through, SI will hold you back when you are at the rooftop. 13 stories may sound high enough but it isn't 100% lethal.
Have you considered hanging? With some alcohol, it should be doable.

I can't find a rope. And I can't guaranteed not being found because I'm living with my family.

 

[No Future]

If jumping 13 stories in the middle of a university campus, I'd consider the effects your landing might have on the impressionable minds of your university peers.

It's easy to disregard the aftermath of your death once you've gone through with it, of course; but you risk a lot of psychological damage to a large number of strangers, who shouldn't have to deal with that shit.