Jesus, these are the worst days of my life...

[Hope:-)]

So it turns out what are potentially someone's last days aren't too peaceful. Had some bad financial news today . I let someone look after my finances and they've had no qualms telling me that they plan to mess me over financially All this from a family member just because I don't want to invest in property with them as I want nothing to do with my family. I wasn't going to ever mention my family on this site, but after years of being scapegoated it got too much. Don't see a way out so I'm now feeling backed into a corner regarding making an attempt on my life. Might order a Mcdonalds but who does that at 3.30 in the afternoon?? As if I don't seem strange enough to people already.

It's suicide prevention month and I find out my supported housing lost someone to suicide last year. Not only that but the staff member who told me also lost her father to suicide. I got emotional as I desperately need someone to talk to...so weird to think what I'm planning and no one suspects a thing.

 

[rationaltake]

Hey. Have a McDonalds if that's what you want. You deserve it. So sorry you've got this extra problem now. And hearing about suicides must be so triggering right now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you suffer like this. There does seem to be no real relief and peace in this life. Best wishes.

 

[thebunny]

Might order a Mcdonalds but who does that at 3.30 in the afternoon??

more common than you think. so go get that mcdonalds and make yourself full and contented with food. fuck what others think, you deserve that mcdonalds.

but i really am sorry that you're suffering like this. family sometimes can really make us want to exit out of this world. i do hope that the next coming days would be peaceful for you. i wish you the best of luck

 

[Hope:-)]

Just received the most disgusting email from them, Blaming me for the mania and psychosis I suffered from medication and ssri mimicking supplements. It's quite clear that my family suffer from personality disorders...and I'm not one to bandy that term around, It's heartbreaking but at least I can pass away having finally seen it. They aren't well and have no clue what they've done or do.
I truly have never felt so backed into a suicide. I am financially ruined. Going to try to stop moaning, but I am alone and scared. It's all such a shame. I've ordered the mcdonalds btw. so that's something.

 

[chronicallybroken]

There is never a wrong time for a maccies

 

[Mofreeko]

Is it really suicide awareness month? hahaha that's going to make my ctb kinda funny.

 

[Hope:-)]

Ok so this is pretty scary stuff. Hotel check in is in 3 days. I'm going to try to live these few days as freely as possible. I'm practically housebound but I think I may go out. Please keep me in you prayers and thoughts over the next few days. I will post my method either later today or tomorrow.x

 

[Sick&TiredURGH]

In my thoughts Hope.
Have great in-depth knowledge of family members not being great.
Something my mother said last year was what triggered my failed OD last year.
I so wish it had have worked.
Preparing and planning this time, wish I could just go to my GP and say I've had enough, refer me to the Euthanasia team please.
But with waiting lists, it'd probably be more time than I could bare.

 

[rationaltake]

Thinking of you and wishing you peace and calm.

 

[Hope:-)]

Thinking of you and wishing you peace and calm.

Thankyou so much xx

 

[Julgran]

Ok so this is pretty scary stuff. Hotel check in is in 3 days. I'm going to try to live these few days as freely as possible. I'm practically housebound but I think I may go out. Please keep me in you prayers and thoughts over the next few days. I will post my method either later today or tomorrow.x

There are more of us here who are in financial troubles - you are not alone. Tread carefully

 

[StarlightDreamer]

Ganbatte, Hope-san. I'll be thinking of you, and pray you can spend these last days happily.