Jesus fucking christ i need help and a method

[juntreen]

I cannot get over that the love of my life has decided to go our seperate ways four months ago and now he is deciding to hookup with other people. my life is absolutely ruined and i am running into a vicious cycle of pain and suffering and extreme mental anguish. I can't even find a god damn psychologist and antidepressants don't work. i feel like nobody values me anymore. my parents love me i know that but it only hurts me every time i think about it. I'm a failure and i want out. i looked into hanging and I don't have anything like a metal bar to hang from, nor rope. there are no tall buildings in my area, nor is there any other methods i have access to. I am a jobless highschool graduate with no money. what do i do? please help me SS.

 

[stoopid]

I would say, if you're stable enough to work, get a job and buy a cheap gun if you're from the US. That would be the best method I guess. You can't get a "good" exit without a little bit of money, jumping from roofs etc is insanely brutal and I would avoid it at all costs

 

[juntreen]

I would say, if you're stable enough to work, get a job and buy a cheap gun if you're from the US. That would be the best method I guess. You can't get a "good" exit without a little bit of money, jumping from roofs etc is insanely brutal and I would avoid it at all costs

I would do that, and i wish i had access to it but i live in Australia and guns will not work at all in my favour. are my chances of escape forever gone? why do i have to have so much pain

 

[stoopid]

I would do that, and i wish i had access to it but i live in Australia and guns will not work at all in my favour. are my chances of escape forever gone? why do i have to have so much pain

From all places, Australia
That's probably the hardest place to be for that, there are tons of dangerous animals.
And very hard to get it done. I think it's possible but it's insanely hard.

Maybe work at a butcher or ask them if they could order SN for you.

Shooting range (?) Rent a gun (?) I don't know how hard is that regulated.

 

[juntreen]

It is very regulated and might be impossible as i have diagnosed severe depression, so. and butcher positions are all closed, so there is no way i could get it. really sorry if this is a hassle for you :(

 

[ThisIsLife]

I suggest anyone willing to CTB to either do it properly (and peacefully) or not do it at all. You can't rush things like that, even if i understand your distress.

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail, and your life will be worst.

Don't rush. As another commenter said, without money, less options.

Try to find a job, if you still want to CTB after a month or two you'll have more options, and if you change your mind you'll have improved your situation.

Just seen you were in Australia, there must be some funky specie willing to kill you just for the sake of it !

 

[juntreen]

I suggest anyone willing to CTB to either do it properly (and peacefully) or not do it at all. You can't rush things like that, even if i understand your distress.

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail, and your life will be worst.

Don't rush. As another commenter said, without money, less options.

Try to find a job, if you still want to CTB after a month or two you'll have more options, and if you change your mind you'll have improved your situation.

Just seen you were in Australia, there must be some funky specie willing to kill you just for the sake of it !

I don't really get what it is with people and assuming there the deadly animals will affect me, it won't. However, there is nothing i can easily buy with money anyway. everything is so regulated here anyway. Is hanging still an option? do belts work? what surfaces do you typically tie it to? if you can answer that, will make sense. thanks again.

 

[ThisIsLife]

I don't really get what it is with people and assuming there the deadly animals will affect me, it won't. However, there is nothing i can easily buy with money anyway. everything is so regulated here anyway. Is hanging still an option? do belts work? what surfaces do you typically tie it to? if you can answer that, will make sense. thanks again.

Don't get mad, Australia is known for its deadly animals, i was trying to joke a little bit.

Your country has become a dystopian nightmare, i know, it got worse since covid.

The only options i can think of that require 0$ are hanging, jumping and drowning.

 

[FuneralCry]

I very much hate the fact how suicide has to be so difficult for us and how we cannot easily be free from all of the suffering. There are just no easy answers to finding ways to leave this world as if there was I would be long gone at this point. It's just so incredibly unfair how we were forced into this world so unnecessarily, yet there is a lack of straightforward ways to leave, when suicide is this difficult then existence is certainly so prison like.

 

[Octavia]

I very much hate the fact how suicide has to be so difficult for us and how we cannot easily be free from all of the suffering. There are just no easy answers to finding ways to leave this world as if there was I would be long gone at this point. It's just so incredibly unfair how we were forced into this world so unnecessarily, yet there is a lack of straightforward ways to leave, when suicide is this difficult then existence is certainly so prison like.

Funny thing, I actually do not remember asking to be born…

I wonder if an exit bag or a similar method could be employed in this scenario, since the materials should be fairly legal to acquire. From what I heard a car and an enclosed garage could also be used to good effect, and could even be staged as an accident too.

 

[jolongone]

Hi l'm fromm Australia too. Not going to make any suggestions on here but feel free to pm me.

I would do that, and i wish i had access to it but i live in Australia and guns will not work at all in my favour. are my chances of escape forever gone? why do i have to have so much pain, lm

 

[Emptied_soul]

We are on the same boat then, the love of my life, the guy that meant everything to me left me 6 months ago because i ended up pushing him away by being toxic, constantly anxious and getting jealous if he were to speak to another girl even if i knew he deeply loved me and he wouldn't do anything with anyone else, i absolutely despise myself and i only wish i was dead every single night. He was the only thing that kept me going.

 

[VisualSeppuku]

NSW, Australian here.
I just want to first off declare that going out should be quick, quiet and overall a moment of peace and relief. Hanging, drowning, poison, lacerations and such will not provide this. Especially if your instincts kick in and make you regret your decision after you've made the jump.
However the goal shouldn't be end the suffering, it should be to fuck it off. Unfortunately living is a curse, we're aware of our eventual end, unaware of our purpose and constantly confronted with hardship.
But fortunately there's always something that comes along and makes shit feel ok for a moment. You might eventually realise that there's a whole lot more than what you see as of now.
Like others said, you shouldn't jump to the guillotine and just wing it. The last thing you need to is to watch those who love you, go through the trauma and proceed to do everything they possibly can to keep you after you get out of hospital. Let alone going to the psych ward, that's traumatic on its own. Grabbing a kitchen knife and having at it will only lead to a slow and agonizing death, especially if you regret it. Hanging will only shoot an extreme amount of pain in your head, eyes and ears as it builds with pressure. Drowning, well if you bond your arms and legs together and toss yourself in a bath. Definitely going to be an experience.

Wait it out. Give yourself some time. Personally I find it really nice to just throw myself into a trance of disassociated carelessness. Sewerslvt and m83 are my favourite artists to do this with.
Oh well, that's my 2 cents worth. I was meant to post this last night but I passed out. If you haven't frantically tried to shiv yourself already than I hope you've leveled out your emotions and your desperation has trickled down.