Jealous of those who have had a successful CTB

[Lifeless mindset]

I wish I had a button of some sort that would immediately kill my once pressed. I'm sure this is something we all wish we had. Wanting to die but not having a 100% guaranteed way to do it has to be one of the most horrible feeling ever. I feel like being being forced to sit here and suffer. If hell exists, it would be hard imagining it being worse than this place. Words can't describe just how exhausted I feel from constantly waking up everyday doing the same thing.

 

[Idontmatter]

I wish I had a button of some sort that would immediately kill my once pressed. I'm sure this is something we all wish we had. Wanting to die but not having a 100% guaranteed way to do it has to be one of the most horrible feeling ever. I feel like being being forced to sit here and suffer. If hell exists, it would be hard imagining it being worse than this place. Words can't describe just how exhausted I feel from constantly waking up everyday doing the same thing.

For what it's worth I can relate. The fear of failure is horrible. I'm terrified my attempt with sn in a few hours will fail but I'm trying to keep the faith. I wish you well in whatever you decide for your future.

 

[Rational man]

Im sorry to hear about your situation. To be honest, life can be painful and many people bragging about their wonder lifestyle are often empty of contentment. Whoever said life is wonderful?. I think.its just a rollercoaster ride until we cease to exist. Until we cease, we live happy or unhappy in our world which is destroying itself.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

For what it's worth I can relate. The fear of failure is horrible. I'm terrified my attempt with sn in a few hours will fail but I'm trying to keep the faith. I wish you well in whatever you decide for your future.

Thank you. Best of luck! I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

Im sorry to hear about your situation. To be honest, life can be painful and many people bragging about their wonder lifestyle are often empty of contentment. Whoever said life is wonderful?. I think.its just a rollercoaster ride until we cease to exist. Until we cease, we live happy or unhappy in our world which is destroying itself.

Agreed. At this point I just see life as being overrated and boring, along with the suffering and sprinkles of happiness here and there. It's exhausting. I'd rather take my chances with death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, of course I wish for an immediate way to exit this life, there is nothing that I could ever want more and there is nothing more ideal than that. Feeling trapped here with no way to escape certainly is such an horrible thing, I agree and I see existing as being like a punishment, it's tragic in fact how we have to suffer so much in finding ways to finally be free from this cruel, hellish world. I also feel extreme envy at those who choose to voluntarily exit and whenever I hear of someone leaving of course I instantly wish that it's me. There's so much beauty in preventing unnecessary suffering and refusing to delay our inevitable fate. At least to me, the less years spent here the better.

 

[sadlilanteater]

I'm incredibly jealous, I had a bottle of argon ready but made the mistake of messaging a friend to come get my valuables before I ctb so the council didn't get them and he informed the police. Now I'm in a position where I can't afford to ctb with security.