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keg-ireland
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- May 3, 2024
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Anyone else feel jealous when they see death notices on their Facebook feed or similar? Wishing it was you that was deceased. Or jealous of those with a terminal illness wishing it was you as you are cared for and pain Managed just before you die.
I find myself jealous of these people as I want my suffering to be over but my survival instinct is too great for me to be successful with CTB.
Twice this week I had the perfect opportunity for full suspension hanging. Both times I had the noose tightened and all i had to do was step off the high chair but I couldn't do it. I should be dead already but damn SI is preventing that.
I find myself jealous of these people as I want my suffering to be over but my survival instinct is too great for me to be successful with CTB.
Twice this week I had the perfect opportunity for full suspension hanging. Both times I had the noose tightened and all i had to do was step off the high chair but I couldn't do it. I should be dead already but damn SI is preventing that.