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AllReturnsToNothing
I'm useless
- Aug 5, 2020
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Does anyone else get incredibly jealous of people who have good happy friend groups? Not just seeing a group of people irl who seem to be happy and having a good time but online friend groups as well? For instance I follow a few smaller creators online, many of which know each other and are genuinely really funny people whose interests align with mine and are similar in age and I see them interact with one another and they have so much fun just being in each other's company and I'm reminded of my friends from High School and how much fun we had and how much we cared about each other and it just hurts so damn much whenever I see this sort of camaraderie that I just can't have anymore. It makes me so sad and mad to see this which feels kinda shitty too and occasionally when I'm feeling really bad and I'm scrolling through social media and I see something related to them and being happy with friends I feel compelled to leave a mean comment. Luckily I have the self-control not to do something totally shitty like that coupled with the fear of possibly being humiliated for being a dick. I don't want to be a dick, it just hurts so much to see people like you in situations where they're thriving when you're busy dying. It's like seeing an alternate reality version of yourself through a looking glass and it hurts like hell that you couldn't be living in that reality.