I've thought about asking for help but I'm scared.

[Green Destiny]

As the title says I've contemplated asking for some help via trying to get some kind of therapist. There's a myriad of reasons why I keep wavering be it from having no clue where to start especially since I'm not on insurance but Medicaid, to trying to get the nerve just to ask my family. It doesn't help that my mom has always given off an air of discouragement for seeking some form of psychiatric help, I don't think she wants to acknowledge the possibility that something could be wrong with me while my dad has always been in his own little world and doesn't know my medical history and he probably won't go through helping me through every step of the process.

I could ask my sister but she's so busy with her own life that I don't want her to have to drop everything to help me, plus if I did ask her for help she'd want to be kept in the loop on what I'm doing and there would be a good chance that I'd get cold feet and back out, and she would then know about my asking for help and she probably wouldn't just drop the subject even if I asked her to.

I'll be honest I needed a few days just to get myself to write this thread, it makes me so uncomfortable. I don't know how to proceed. As one last side note this isn't including my feelings for therapists/psychiatrist since I've heard stories about them telling others personal information despite not being allowed to sans you threatening people or yourself.

 

[badatparties]

If you think it will help, try it. I heard it takes a long time to find a good therapist/psychologist. Don't think you have to stay with one if it isn't working out. There are also many forms of therapy, EMDR, Humanistic, Gestalt, Internal family systems, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Dialectical Behavior Therapy and so on and so forth.

It will take some time, especially with shit insurance like Medicaid. Peace.